we'll meet in inferno!

Its been four days after a longgggg crappy week with shitty poems, history and duh.. bullshit professors! I never felt this freedom for so longgggg, yow gotcha? Thank God for making this real. I'm so so lovin' it! :))

P.S. Man by nature is restless!
2 months to go..
we'll meet in inferno!
Agh

I screwed up 90% of my teenage life

TAG 25 FRIENDS; REMEMBER TO TAG THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU!

[x] Gotten detention.
[x] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[x] Gotten suspended.
[x]Gotten caught chewing gum.
[x] Gotten caught cheating on a test.

Total: 5

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didn’t do homework over 5 times.
[ ] Turned at least 3 projects in late
[ ] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[ ] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.

Total : 2

[x] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[X] Texted people during class
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[X] Laughed at the teacher.

Total : 5

[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x] Went on myspace , facebook , xanga , etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[x] Listened to an iPod , CD , etc. during class.

Total : 4

[x] Threw something at the teacher.
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[ ] Broke the dress code.
[ ] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

Total : 5

[x] Gotten a call from school.
[x] Couldn’t go on a field trip/programs cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn’t take your stuff to school.
[ ] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[x] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear

Total : 5

[x] Faked your parents signature
[x] Slept in class.
[x] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied homework

Total: 4

All total: 30

Multiply by 3 =
Then repost this as "I screwed up 90% of my teenage life"


YOU HAVE BEEN TAGGED: Ange, Chairmaine (Hon), Normz, Ak-ak, Alphie, Issa, Kate, and Cha.

Ang minors nakikimajors samantalang ang majors TINOLANG MANOK LANG!

Ok a fucking entry before i snore to life..

Im so fucking exhausted!!! Hindi ko alam kung dahil sa malapit na ending ng class or just being damn shit irregular student! Kailangan ba tambakan ng papers and projecst kapag 3 weeks nalang ang natitirang araw sa eskwela? or it was just a routine? Nakakainis isipin na ang mga minor subject nakikimajor samantalang ang mga major units eh TINOLANG MANOK LANG! Ano ba? Bakit hindi niyo ipagawa ang mga iyan nung mga araw na hindi kami gahul sa oras? Do you really need to let us suffer for reading a fucking 210pages book just to comply with one photo as a project? talagang ganun? kailangan last minute na sasabihin na may term papers na 8 pages at bukas na bukas na ipapasa? at sa huling minuto sasabihin individual samantalng nagawa na namin yun as a group? DAMN!! for god sake, yung iba dyan amoy hukay na ayaw pang magretire, yung iba over cholesterol na - ni hindi na makalingon at makahuli ng mga nagcheacheating sa sobrang katabaan and yet still ang hirap hirap niyong magpa exam. Tapos sabay niyo ibibigay ang mga production na dapat naming gawin.. ano ba yan lord.. im gonna die. Mamomoblema ka pa sa recitation kinabukasan kasi baka ma singko pag natawag ka kasi di mo nabasa ang walang katapusang libro. Ang hirap maging matalino este masipag masyadong nakakapagod. Puwing na ang mga mata mo at lawit na ang dila mo tapos sasabayan pa ng ADVANCE kuno na finals bukas. Hay nako nakakapagod mabuhay sa purgatoryong ito..

Wish ko lang end of the world na!! So fucking hard.. shempre kasama pa dyan ang mga responsibilidad mo sa bahay kung may reponsibilidad ka huh, swerte na lang ng iba dyan na pa petiks petiks lang sa bahay. Di lang yun, ang msama pa dyan malaking sagabal yan sa love life mo.. panira, agaw pansin. Pero ok lang kasi sinasamantala nila ang mga ganitong pagkakataon para sa kanilang natapos na kursong BSCS. Bachelor of Science in Counter Strike major in DOTA!!! Sana matapos ko na rin ung kurso kung MASS COMfortable sa bahay!!

inhail exhail nalang muna.. may araw ka din sakin ma'am! /gg

Don't mess with Filipino!

In a New York sidewalk, a Filipino is enjoying a hearty breakfast " coffee, croissants, toast, butter, jam, etc. When an American, sits next to him, chewing gum and starts an unwanted conversation. . American: You Filipinos eat the whole bread? Filipino : Of course! American: ( Blowing bubbles with his gum) We don't. In the States we only eat what's inside. The crust we collect in a container, recycle, rebake them into croissants and sell them to the Philippines . American: Do ya eat jam with bread? Filipino : Of course! American: (Chuckling and crackling his gum between his teeth) We don't. In the States, we eat fruit at breakfast, put all the peels, seeds and leftovers into containers, recycle them into jam and sell it to the Philippines . Filipino : Do you use condoms during sex in America ? American: Of course, we do! Filipino : What do you do with the condoms? American: We throw them, of course! Filipino : We don't. In the Philippines , we put them into containers, recycle them, melt them down into chewing gums and sell it to America.

i miss you friend!

As I snuggle on my bed, I've missed numbers of "friends" The moments and everything that made my jaw hurts!

1. ANGE - I miss you Bru. The emo moments and the sessions with our patron saints. The 1on1 looser mode of watching movies and spending the rest of the time with our brand of coffee. The time we smoke like we were gas up with Diesel and Augh what a ease!. :P I miss our gimiks - the dance like theres no tomorrow! Oh, crap! I feel itchy dude! Kailangan ko ng masuot ang aking mga wonderful shoezee!
2. TERIO & AVERYL - damn! When was the last shot we took?
3. ALPHIE - I miss the trains of your undying comment to every single thing! The memorable Comfort Room you've cried on that made us go crazy. ( Akala namin suicidal na! ) The most anticipated nights we shared in Counter-strike that circumcises you most of the time! Indeed, i've missed you!
4. NORMZ - I miss your monotonous voice, your hot gossips and of course, those pick-up lines that made our puzzling day complete!
5. POL- SHET! ang mga ngiting hinugot sa tadyang ni Norman!
6. BUGAS - *Nanawagan po kami sainyong lahat. Kung may natanaw po kayong short, dark and hand.. funny, ipagbigay alam po ninyo sa may kapal!
7. AK - I miss your emo hair. Kailan tayo magpapakalasing sa tubig?
8. ABENG - Ang pinaka maraming love letter na natanggap ko sa buong buhay ko ay nagmula sa babaeng ito. Miss na kita puta ka!
9. CORPUZ - Augh! I don't know if she is still existing, naging nars lang parang nakatira na rin sa Mars. Pisti ka..multuhin mo naman ako!
10. D - The biggest shobe ever! Though you've missed my birthdayssssssssss, outings and everything, I still waiting for the BEEFYlicious thing you'll impossibly cook. EW..it's been 2 years shobs!!
11. DREW - Victoria baka gustong magyaya ng kahit anong tungaan! I miss those gossip you've shared and our emo times together. And yes, you remind me of Mr. Bean este Mr. Bean remind me of you pala!
12. GELAY- hindi kita namimiss! Nakakasawa na ang pagmumuka mo sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Dyos! Pero napanaginipan kita magpasalamat ka!
13. CHARM- Hon what's up? I miss you so much. Ang mga chika mong abot langit at mga hinanakit sa taong iyong iniibig! Damn! I miss those time we spend in IZLUDE!
14. ANDER - I miss you piggy Ander! You remind me of CHOLESTEROL!
15. PEEVEE - I miss your undying lines "Hug me"
16. EMPU - The fattest friend i ever had! I miss casting with you pakner.
17. DADEE - Ang taong nagturo saakin ng mga kabutihan sa mundo ng kabastusan!
18. AGIE & BASTE - Paano ko makakalimutan ang mga bungangang tinirahan ng langaw sa ingay at mga panahong nagpasakit ng panga ko sa saya! Iset na ang EB!
19. JANZ - Ang taong kay hilig makipag SOF sex on fone, SOW, sex on web at kung ano ano pang pwedeng makipag sex on..
20. WIKKU- My ultimate :@) proffesor na handang patayin ang lahat sa loob ng PVP!
21. JEN - I miss our poker days and one look, she'll vanish! Ninja yan eh!
22. PUSHY - I miss you pushy! Who'll forget those days with Scofield? hahaha! And some pick-up lines we've shared!
23. MEME - Hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ang taong ito na hinampas ako sobrang lakas sa AB building para bumili ng kanyang Stick-O! I miss you meme!
24. MARVS - My FUTURE..friend! Nakow.. I miss our sessions together pati na rin ang impakta mong gelfren! Lets get drunk!
25. BENGBENG - "Cum on" sabay pa sa pag shake ng balikat! damn I miss you Wabs! Who would ever forget those hundreds of seat ups you made para sa isang pirasong Ritz biscuit hahaha!\
26. BADJAG - I miss your fats!
27. ALVIN - I miss the emo times with you! At ang iyong katabaan!
28. KALBS - Of course, my one and only dada that never had the experience of any hair growth. upper and lower!
29. DARYL & JEMSON - Ang mga moments natin nung high school. Ang gulaman na dinuraan ko na ininom ni Daryl at ang ipin ni jemson na sadyang napakapag pasaya saaming batch! damn i miss you both!

Here.. Ang mga taong nagbigay kulay saaking pagkatao! naks. Sila ang masarap kasama, masarap ang lahat. Hindi basura at walang mga maiitim na balak. OUCH!

VOILA!

NA MISS KO KAYO!!

As I snuggle on my bed, I've missed numbers of "friends" The moments and everything that made my jaw hurts!

1. ANGE - I miss you Bru. The emo moments and the sessions with our patron saints. The 1on1 looser mode of watching movies and spending the rest of the time with our brand of coffee. The time we smoke like we were gas up with Diesel and Augh what a ease!. :P I miss our gimiks - the dance like theres no tomorrow! Oh, crap! I feel itchy dude! Kailangan ko ng masuot ang aking mga wonderful shoezee!
2. TERIO & AVERYL - damn! When was the last shot we took?
3. ALPHIE - I miss the trains of your undying comment to every single thing! The memorable Comfort Room you've cried on that made us go crazy. ( Akala namin suicidal na! ) The most anticipated nights we shared in Counter-strike that circumcises you most of the time! Indeed, i've missed you!
4. NORMZ - I miss your monotonous voice, your hot gossips and of course, those pick-up lines that made our puzzling day complete!
5. POL- SHET! ang mga ngiting hinugot sa tadyang ni Norman!
6. BUGAS - *Nanawagan po kami sainyong lahat. Kung may natanaw po kayong short, dark and hand.. funny, ipagbigay alam po ninyo sa may kapal!
7. AK - I miss your emo hair. Kailan tayo magpapakalasing sa tubig?
8. ABENG - Ang pinaka maraming love letter na natanggap ko sa buong buhay ko ay nagmula sa babaeng ito. Miss na kita puta ka!
9. CORPUZ - Augh! I don't know if she is still existing, naging nars lang parang nakatira na rin sa Mars. Pisti ka..multuhin mo naman ako!
10. D - The biggest shobe ever! Though you've missed my birthdayssssssssss, outings and everything, I still waiting for the BEEFYlicious thing you'll impossibly cook. EW..it's been 2 years shobs!!
11. DREW - Victoria baka gustong magyaya ng kahit anong tungaan! I miss those gossip you've shared and our emo times together. And yes, you remind me of Mr. Bean este Mr. Bean remind me of you pala!
12. GELAY- hindi kita namimiss! Nakakasawa na ang pagmumuka mo sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Dyos! Pero napanaginipan kita magpasalamat ka!
13. CHARM - Hon what's up? I miss you so much. Ang mga chika mong abot langit at mga hinanakit sa taong iyong iniibig! Damn! I miss those time we spend in IZLUDE!
14. ANDER - I miss you piggy Ander! You remind me of CHOLESTEROL!
15. PEEVEE- I miss your undying lines "Hug me"
16. EMPU - The fattest friend i ever had! I miss casting with you pakner.
17. DADEE - Ang taong nagturo saakin ng mga kabutihan sa mundo ng kabastusan!
18. AGIE & BASTE - Paano ko makakalimutan ang mga bungangang tinirahan ng langaw sa ingay at mga panahong nagpasakit ng panga ko sa saya! Iset na ang EB!
19. JANZ - Ang taong kay hilig makipag SOF sex on fone, SOW, sex on web at kung ano ano pang pwedeng makipag sex on..
20. WIKKU - My ultimate :@) proffesor na handang patayin ang lahat sa loob ng PVP!
21. JEN - I miss our poker days and one look, she'll vanish! Ninja yan eh!
22. PUSHY - I miss you pushy! Who'll forget those days with Scofield? hahaha! And some pick-up lines we've shared!
23. MEME - Hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ang taong ito na hinampas ako sobrang lakas sa AB building para bumili ng kanyang Stick-O! I miss you meme!
24. MARVS - My FUTURE..friend! Nakow.. I miss our sessions together pati na rin ang impakta mong gelfren! Lets get drunk!
25. BENGBENG - "Cum on" sabay pa sa pag shake ng balikat! damn I miss you Wabs! Who would ever forget those hundreds of seat ups you made para sa isang pirasong Ritz biscuit hahaha!\
26. BADJAG - I miss your fats!
27. ALVIN - I miss the emo times with you! At ang iyong katabaan!
28. KALBS - Of course, my one and only dada that never had the experience of any hair growth. upper and lower!
29. DARYL & JEMSON - Ang mga moments natin nung high school. Ang gulaman na dinuraan ko na ininom ni Daryl at ang ipin ni jemson na sadyang napakapag pasaya saaming batch! damn i miss you both!

Here.. Ang mga taong nagbigay kulay saaking pagkatao! naks. Sila ang masarap kasama, masarap ang lahat. Hindi basura at walang mga maiitim na balak. OUCH!

VOILA!

Chansone d'Autome

Chanson d’Automne

By Paul Verlaine

With long sobs

the violin throbs

of autumn wound

my heart with languorous

and monotonous sound.

choking and pale

when I mind the tale

the hours keep,

my memory strays

down other days

and I weep;

and let me go

where ill winds blow

now here now there,

even as a dead

leaf, everywhere.

I wanna dedicate this one of the well known Symbolist movement Paul Verlaine's masterpiece to my one and only bestfriend. Para sa kanyang labidubi kangaroo!

ANG HARI BAW!

Ang hirap ng buhay kapag ang napangaswang mo eh HARI -- HARI NG TAGAYAN, HARI NG TONG-IT, HARI NG BARKADA at ang pinaka pasukdol eh.. HARI NG DOTA! watdafuck diba?!

Pero wala kang magagawa dahil siya ang HARI NG PUSO MO!

Pag-ibig nga naman..

Magbestfriend nagkatuluyan..

HULI NA ANG LAHAT PARA TUMAWID!!

Kung ang taba...

karen Co: "haha kung ang taba lng napupunta sa dede kakain na ko ng marami"
karen Co: hahaha
Kukay sy: AHHAHAHHAH!!
Kukay sy: PANALOOOOO!!!

Pagwalang magawa.. #3

80 Things You Might Not Know About Me
Whats your middle name?	Dy
How big is your bed?	VERY BIG
What are you listening to right now?	Cyclone
What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?	6168
What was the last thing you ate?	Adobo
Last person you hugged?	Lucky
How is the weather right now?	Cold
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?	Lucky
What is the first thing u notice in the opposite sex?	eyezzzzzzzzz
Favorite type of Food.	Creamy
Do you want children?	yes
Do you drink?	Kailangan pa bang imemorize yan?
Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?	naw!
Hair color?	Brown
Eye colour?	Brown
Do you wear contacts/glasses?	yes, contacts
Favorite holiday?	All Saints day
Favorite Season?	Summer
Have you ever cried over a girl/boy?	yes
Last Movie you Watched?	Geisha
What books are you reading?	The Eternity Cure
Piercings?	no
Favorite Movie?	Twilight,Transformer, damiiiii
Favorite college football Team?	Wala
What were you doing before filling this out?	answering another surveys
Any pets?	yes
Dogs or cats?	Dogs ( Betty & Bino )
Favorite Flower?	Gumamela :))
Have you ever loved someone?	yes
Who would you like to see right now?	Ang aking napakabait na asawa!
Have you ever fired a gun?	water gun
Do you like to travel by plane?	yes
Right-handed or Left-handed?	right
If you could go to any place right now where would you go?	Amsterdam or Puerto na lang!!
Are you missing someone?	yes
Do you have a tattoo?	naw
Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?	I never did
Are you hiding something from someone?	naw
ARE YOU 18?	not anymore
WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE?	Calendar
DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?	As usual, NAW!
FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING?	\"Pasukan nanaman pusa!\"
WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?	My bag
GRILLED OR FRIED?	Both
WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE?	my shoessssssssss
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?	sometime :P
FAVORITE HANGOUT?	Basta\'t may alak favorite na!
3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?	Johnsons Baby Powder, love, foods
FAVORITE SONG?	Boom,Shake,Drop
WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?	Ms. Macapagal ( My Prof in Lit )
ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?	both
WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?	Kukaii, Kukie, Kai, Kukz
WHAT IS YOUR DADS MIDDLE NAME?	Wala.. He\'s an Alien.
WHATS YOUR MOTHERS MIDDLE NAME?	Dy
STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD TAKE ONE THING?	water
FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?	wala
WHO'S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER?	Mother
FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?	Siopao
Whats your favorite color?	Green, white, brown, black and red
WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE WITH YOU?	Cellphone and Cigarette
WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?	Stewardes
WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 11:11?	Surfing etc
THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEEt?	flesh
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT BEFORE YOU GO TO BED?	How could i sleep
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Pagwalang magawa.. #2

Your Best Friend

Whos your Best Friend?

Name- Ange

Birthday- Oct. 6, 1989

Where do they live- West Triangle

How did you meet- eye contact during our 4th grade in Philadelphia haha!

Do they have siblings? yes.. 2 gals and 1 gay

About them..

Any Quotes? Ang magkaibigang matalik, kailan man ay di magtatalik

Black or white? Black

Favorite drink- Jose Cuervo

Favorite movie- Too many to mention

Favorite Food- Chicken with ginger sause

Memories...

Best memory every drinking session

Worst memory wala pa... asa pa!

How often

Do you see this person? everyday

Call this person in one day? once or twice

Stay the night with this person? Nakow.. Every now and then

Do you yell at this person? naw

If you...

Only had 24 hours left with this person Magyaya ako ng inuman pagkatapos papatayin ko na rin siya.

Couldnt talk to them anymore- txt, chat or email will do men!

Had to say one last thing to them I <3 you Bru!

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Pagwalang magawa.. #1

Survey About Yourself
About You
Eye Color:	brown
Hair Color:	brown
Height:	5\'2 1/2
Favorite Color:	red,green,brown,white,black
Screen Name:	kukaii
Favorite Band:
Favorite Movie:	Twilight,Geisha & Transformer
Favorite Show:
Your Car:	V-tec-cleta
Your Hometown:
Your Present Town:
Your Crushes First Name:	Kevin
Your Grade:
Your Style:
Have You Ever
Sat on your rooftop?:	yes
Kissed someone in the rain?:	yes
Danced in a public place?:	yes
Smiled for no reason?:	yes
Laughed so hard you cried?:	yes
Peed your pants after age 8?:	naw
Written a song?:	yes
Sang to someone for no reason?:	naw
Performed on a stage?:	yes
Talked to someone you don't know?:	yes
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?:	naw
Made out in a theatre?:	naw
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?:	yes
Been in love?:	oh yes
Who was the last person to
Say HI to you?:	Agie
Tell you, I love you?:	Lucky
Kiss you?:	siopao
Hug you?:	Lucky
Tell you BYE?:	Ange
Write you a note?:	Wag na yun, pervert yun eh..
Take your photo?:	Lucky
Call your cell phone?:	Ange
Buy you something?:	Gelay
Go with you to the movies?:	Lucky
Sing to you?:	Looser, wala!!
Write a poem about you?:	Benjo
Text message you?:	Lucky
Touch you?:	Yaya Inday
What's the last
Time you laughed?:	During Ethics subject
Time you cried?:	Dec. 27, 2008
Movie you watched?:	Shake,Rattle and Roll
Joke you told?:	Paano magmasterbate si Pinocchio?
Song you've sang?:	Cyclone
Time you've looked at the clock?:	5:30pm
Drink you've had?:	water
Number you've dialed?:	0922******9
Book you've read?:	The Eternity cure
Food you've eaten?:	Adobo
Flavor of gum chewed?:
Shoes you've worn?:	My new stilleto
Store you've been in?:	Mini Stop
Thing you've said?:	Thing you\'ve said
Can You
Write with both hands?:	no
Whistle?:	yes
Blow a bubble?:	yezz
Roll your tounge in a circle?:	yes
Cross your eyes?:	yes
Touch your tounge to your nose?:	naw
Dance?:	yes
Gleek?:	yes
Stay up a whole night without sleep?:	yes
Speak a different language?:	oh yeah
Impersonate someone?:	no
Prank call people?:	yes :P
Make a card pyramid?:	no
Cook anything?:	Hell yeah!
Finish The Line
If i were a ...:	boyhttp://coookieee.multiply.com/ho
I wish ...:	my wish will be granted.
So many people don't know that ...:	Leonardo da vinci is a gay
I am ...:	beautiful no matter what they say
My heart is ...:	palpitating.
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Future clothes

After i could realize the end of fragrance smell of the holiday, I started to nagged my old pictures and yet for some you know.. reminiscing to mind my "tale." I always thought of this day to come. I anticipated so much of my maturity, physically and mentally cause' even in my grade school years, i always remind myself to awaken me when i reach high school and likewise for not so important things to be anticipated with cause' for the fact that i hate our uniform. I started to fantasized more of what am I gonna wear in the future.

ew!!!

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Ang dating daan

Nakaka miss di pa lang magpaka-emo.. yung todo-todong emohan. Sa tagal ng panahon, ngayon lang ulit ako nakinig ng mga emo songs, iba pa lang ang pakiramdam ng natali sa kamanhiran. Iba pa la yung pakiramdam pag muling nabusog ang puso mo na ngayon may heart ache ka, may aalalahanin, may hindi pinagkakasunduan at iba pang mga bagay na tila nagcocontract yung muscle mo sa bandang kanan ng iyong pagkatao. Nakakagagong isipin na sa tinagal ng panahon, mauuwi rin pala ako sa ganitong aura. Nakakahiyang sabihin, nakakahiyang ipakita, pero wala eh.. ito yung totoo. Kaya pala yung iba kung makapag emo akala mo kung sinong manganganak at triplets ang lalabas sa kanilang chorva sapagkat kaya at alam ko kung paano uunawain ang mga ganong pagkakataon pero sa sa bawat minutong lumilipas, kahit expert ka makakalimutan mo rin pala ang actual na eksena. Kapag narinig mo o nalaman mo na naglupasay yung isa o nagbaliw-baliwan, nakakatawang isipin ngunit sa pagdaloy ng bawat musika na handang patayin ang kaluluwa ko.. unti-unti kong namamalayan ang sarap ng pagiging masokista sa pangalawang pagkakataon. O kay sarap pa lang magpakaotistik sa ganitong malamig, problemado at higit sa lahat sa gitna ng dilim. Ang sarap suminga ng malalim habang nilalamlam ang mga bala mula sa kanta at sa pagsakit ng maselang parte ng dibdib mo..etooo...etooo na ang bagyo. What a ease diba? pero hindi ko makakalimutan na bago ko maging satisfied sa ganitong pakiradam.. nagmuka muna akong tanga. Walang saksi, walang kahit ano.. sarili mo lang.

...

Yesterday, I call it a day- day that made me realized the disadvantage of "together again"

FILIPINO VERSION NG TWILIGHT???

ANO BA YAN!! NAKAKAWINDANG NAMAN.. BADUYYYY!

Ang taong walang bisyo

Ito ang paksa ng inuman namin sa kalye noong isang Linggo kasama ang mga siga ng Tondo este ng Quezon City. Napgausapan namin ang pagkamatay ng isang di sikat pero maaring kumikinang siya sa ibang tao. Napagtanto ko lamang ang salitang BISYO ng maesplika ni G. Carampel ang masaklap na mga posibilidad na maaari mong maranasan pagdating ng panahon ng kadiliman. Katulad ko, katulad ng iba at ng mga ibang pang nilalang pa na ninirahan sa kabilugan ng mundo, may kakaunting bagay na masama kung tawagin ang mga pinagkabishasnan ngunit sa kabilang banda, maituturing itong isang kaagapay sa panahong ng pagbabaliktad ng mundo dahil ang problema ay parang isang lamok, walang pinipili, walang sinasanto kahit bataan ka pa ni Captain Baygon. Sa sarap ng dugo mo, sa kanyang palad nakatala ang huling hiniga mo.

Wag ka lang maging salot sa lipunan kung magbibisyo ka dahil sa mahal na ang gulay ngayon, hindi lang ang mga vegetarian ang naaapektuhan, pati na rin ang mga sunog-baga at mga sumasamba sa kani-kanilang patron saints. Pero hindi kayang sukatin ang salitang bisyo sa ganitong bagay lamang. Sa ating demograpiko kasi, mas kilala ang mga atapang atao na handang pumapatay sa kaluluwa gamit ang bawal na gamot. Sumunod na dito ang mga pagewang-gewang na na lasingero at mga nagmamahal sa ihip ng polusyon hatid ng sigarilyo. Samantalang madami diyang mabubulag na at gumagapang na sa gutom dahil sa mahal ng libro pero hindi sila kinamumuhian ng kalikasan. Sabagay mas maganda naman na matulad ka kay Petrarca na namatay habang nakapatong ang muka niya isang libro kesa naman sa mga taong namatay ng walang awang pinagkasya ang tiyan nila sa ataul.

Nakukuha mo ba ang aking punto? Malawak ang salitang bisyo at dapat nating malaman ang kahulugan nito lalo na sa mga Emos na handang maglaslas at higit sa lahat sa mga taong malaki ng ang kalyo sa paa. Sapat na kung matukoy niyo ang gawaing ito bagama't wala man kayong balikat na maaring paglanguyan, alam niyo ang daan patungo sa paraiso. Hindi ito nakukuha sa pagbibigti o pag-iinom ng zonrox, hindi rin ito nakukuha sa sisisid o sa pagtatanim ng bala dahil hanggat may dugong dumadaloy sa mundong ito, mananatali pa rin ang lintik na lamok sa buhay natin.

Tulad ko, batugan ako ngunit sa aking paggising, kaagapay ko ang buwan na kay lalim. Paminsan-minsan dinadaan ko sa paglalaro ng mga video games at sinasabayan ng mga matatamis na tsokolate. Isa pang matinding bisyo ko na mula't sapul ay ang pag agos ng mga balde-baldeng luha pagkatapos ang haharap sa refrigerator at muli, pagaganahin ang bibig sa kakanguya. Paninigarilyo naman ang isang klaseng ng aking ginawa sa loob ng isang araw. Hindi po ako adik pero sa tuwing tinatawag ako ng mga siga ng inidoro, isang mahabang pagbuga ng hangin ang todo-todo kong nilalabas. Kasabay na rin dito ang pagpananampalataya ko sa aking patron saint na si San Miguel. Minsan kumakabayo din ako at muli namumula o sumasaya. Tsinelas, Tsinelas, Sapatos, Sapatos naman ang isang uri ng aking paglalabas ng sama ng loob. Dito, gastos kung gastos, bahala na si Manuel Quezon saakin. Siya na ang magpapatakbo ng isang buong araw ko sa eskwela, mura naman ang gulaman na may ecoli at fishball na sinungkit pa sa kanal.

At sa iba pang mga kakilala't kaibigan kong natatangi ang mga bisyo ay ang pagpupokpok sa tambol, pagpapakalasing sa coke, pagpapakaloka sa keso, pagtataya sa karera ng dehadong kabayo, pagbabasa ng bibliya (huwow!), pagbibigay pugay sa larangan ng edukasyon at ang pinaka matindi ay ang pagtatahi ng mga butas na salawal.

missing my pancake

Who cared what i have to deal with tomorrow! EW!! Spending my whole year with suckers had mold me apparently to kill them out my brain cells. My brows are burning to hell and here it comes..Firstly, Da Vinci's Monalisa was confirm to us that.. well first the best remebered painter was a "GAY" (uuh!) and though he dabbled in many astonishing fields, the La Gioconda was said to be exactly the same person. (speaking of Da Vinci himself) Is this a fact? Secondly, the fact that im so much excited for frugaly keeping my savings for my significant others, i ended up lavishly speding it for myself. EW! but but but before anyone could call out for Santa's help.. i was able to pick one special gift for my very pretty-ew bestfriend. Too bad my hubby would probably wish for Santa's existence! lols Ok.. for the third annoying thing, we ( Mr. & Mrs Carampel) went to Bellview to shop and unfortunately, the bazaar was captured by Satan. I can't help but to helplessly stop my hubby from assaulting him and in any split second, i might have heart attack. Well, we ended up harashing each other cause for arguing that it was century ago and things are enough said.. there's no need for any Round 9 scenes. ( gusto pang sumabay kay Pacquiao ) He even accuse me for being a hero! What the heck? Satan's hero? So my point goes this way, leave it to God ( may ganun! ) because it was totally over.. we're ok.. ( Orocan po ang brand ko) and nothing will make that feel better nor ending it with period.. unless he'll bury him alive. And another thing is, do my heart need to attack as well as his fist everytime we cross each others world? ( small world big world what a world ) Finally, the last fucking thing is ---- i can't sleep ;)) that's why i was hooked to this nonsense thing ever!.. haha Ang laki ng problema eh no! But the truth is im so desperate on feeding myself with pancakes imbued with creamy delicious butter and gallons of syrup!! Ewww sarap! kkkk goodnight!ü

alive and loving

Finally after a long long years.. the song I'm a single ladies will be just a song. EW! hahhaha! Well, life had magnetize me through the thick and thick and yet I' am here, alive and loving! What more could i ask for? After all the pain from this sucking year, im still here surviving. Petrarca's sonnet will stay the same as lonely as before but although i coundn't speak of passing the test of time, I'll stay. I swear.. Edwardü este Miguel pala!

Oh Edward.. ( Twilight the movie )

Oh Twilight.. For the last 4 months of waiting in vain, thank God.. for creating such creature like Edward and Carlisele. Damn! What i really like about the movie is the "shimmer thing" I was about to fell off my chair when Pattinson started to glitter in the sun..hihihi! Grabe, i can't help but to squeeze my chick and keep on giggling. Wala akong makurot dahil katabi ko si Ange at si Achi Arlene at dahil yung pinaka mamahal ko eh nasa dulo.. nagbubunot ng lisa sa dilim kasi walang maintidihan sa movie hahah :)) But with all honesty, sobrang ok na yung movie just don't compare it with the book kasi its impossible. whats important is yung mgaVampires that really depicted our imagination dahil kung hindi baka matagal na kong umiinom ng dugo! :P Anyway i'll go with the rate of 8 out of 10 :))

I would like to thanks Achi Aubrey the reservation of the Ticket. :))















With Bianca, Shobe, Achi Arlene, Achi Aubrey, Aleth, Kuya, Kuya Erol, Bian, Ajina, Ahya lucks and Ange.































At ito ang ruffle na napanalunan namin from Edward.ü

Lintik lang ang walang ganti

Ok..After 3 days of capacitating my so called knowledge kuno in Continental Literature, finally, natapos din ang aking walang kamatayan pagsusunog ng kilay. Since i considered the first starting week of class was an inevitability of fate (being an iregular student really sucks!) .. eto nagsusuffer ako sa aking mala midieval na maestra dahil kung alam ko lang na si MACAPAGAL ang aking magiging katuwang sa loob ng kalahating semester.. eh walang sabi sabi ay idro-drop ko na yan. Ngunit datatpwat huli na ang lahat!!! And eventually, nagsimula akong magsuicide sa sa pagbabasa at pagiintindi ng mga symbols ng bawat linyang nababanggit ng mga lecheng literary writers na yan. One of the Exmeplum is Dante (Divina Comedia) , though i really appreciate every single cantos he'd written yun nga lang nakakashock isipin na nagsimula akong magsunog nung Tuesday which takes me 4 hours of analyzing each of his cantos. And Wednesday (wala akong pasok) - i started planting mascaras on my beautiful and long lashes at exactly 1pm and around 8pm, narealized ko na hindi pa pala ako kumakain, Pagkatapos, hindi ko na hinayaang tuluyan ng malibing ang bangkay ko.. I decided to sleep-over at my bestfriend's place wherein nagpakasawa akong magpoker at makipagkwentutan sa mga bagay bagay na nagpapa embitter saamin. nyahaha! At since walang maghahatid saakin bukas, sumabay ako sa pagpasok ni Ange na 5:15am pa lang ng umaga eh nasa C.R. na ko at nagpapaka lunod sa fresh warm water nila sa balde. Samantalang 11:30am pa yung pasok ko damnit! (Infairness, namiss ko ang paggising ng ganitong oras!) We arrived in our pontificial university exactly 630am.. kung saan inintay ko si impaktang Gelay at muli.. nagpakabusog ako sa pancake ng Jollibee na matagal ko ng pinaglalawayan habang naamuy ang mabuntot na libro sa Literatura. Ilang oras pa lang ang nakakalipas ay nagtungo na kami sa Central Library at nagdagdag ng gasolina para sa MAIKSINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG exam ni Honorable Prof. Macapagal sa Friday. At Ngayon.. Eto ako kakatapos lang ulit magmaneho sa lintik lintik na mga lubak ni Dante, Petrarta, Boccaccio, Pulci, Boicardo, Machiavelli Carducci at iba pang mga masterpiece nila. Bukas malalaman ko ang destinasyon ko sa mundo ni Macapagal.. I LOVE YOU MA'AM!! (Lintik lang ang walang ganti!)

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Naka Move on ka na?

1. After one year of not seeing each other, muli mong nakita ang ex mo. Ano ang magiging reaction mo?

a. Alam mo ba kung bakit tayo nagkita uli? This is destiny! We're really meant for each other!
b. Do I know you? Dahil wala akong kilalang taksil!
c. Hi! Musta na? Me? Eto nagbibilang ng boyfriend/girlfriend.
d. Hey! What's up? Long time, no see!

2. Saan nakalagay ang picture ng ex mo?

a. Sa ilalim ng unan ko. Para mapanaginipan ko sya.
b. Sa kwarto ko. Ginagawa kong dart board.
c. Sa isang photo album kasama ng pictures ng mga naging boyfriends/girlfriends ko na may title na "My Playmates Collection".
d. Sa isang photo album kasama ng pictures ng mga friends ko. After all, we're still friends.

3. Nakasalubong mo ang dati mong bestfriend na jowa na ng ex mo ngayon. Ano ang gagawin mo?

a. Guard! Hulihin ang magnanakaw na ito!
b. So, ikaw pala ang ipinagpalit nya sa akin. Pumapatol na pala sya sa alien ngayon.
c. Excuse me, have we met before?
d. Hi! Musta na kayo ni ______?

4. Tinetext mo pa ba ang ex mo?

a. Everyday. Pinapasahan ko sya ng mga sweet messages. Minsan pati load.
b. Once in a while. Tinetext ko sya ng "Lintik lang ang walang ganti!"
c. Wala na akong time na itext sya sa dami ng kalandian ko sa text ngayon.
d. Paminsan-minsan lang para mangamusta or kapag kinakailangan.

5. May nagbalita sa yo na naaksidente daw ang ex mo. How would you react?

a. My God! Wag mo po muna syang kunin! Ikamamatay ko!
b. Bwahahaha! Ang karma nga naman! Mas mabilis pa sa Fed-Ex!
c. What?! Ok lang, hindi lang naman sya ang lalaki sa mundo.
d. Talaga?! Sana maging ok naman ang lagay nya. (Sabay balik sa pinapanood mong tagalog telenovela)

6. Ano ang naka-entry na name ng ex mo sa cel mo?

a. Babe (hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin pinapalitan.)
b. Hudas.
c. He/She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named.
d. Complete name nya.

7. Kailan ka huling dumaan sa favorite restaurant nyo ng ex mo?

a. Almost everyday. Dun pa ko pumupwesto sa favorite spot namin. Gusto kong sariwain ang nakaraan.
b. Never again! Isinusumpa ko ang restaurant na yun! Ikinakalat ko pa sa internet na may cyanide ang food na sineserve nila para hindi na sila tangkilikin ng tao at magsara na sila!
c. Last weekend. Dun ko kasi niyayaya ang mga nakaka-date ko.
d. Paminsan-minsan. Pag dun trip kumain ng mga friends ko.

8. When was the last time you heard news about your ex?

a. Everyday. I'm stalking him/her.
b. Hinihintay ko nga na ma-front page sya sa dyaryo na nasagasaan ng tren dahil araw-araw kong ipinapanalangin yun!
c. Nung time na nagbreak kami. Kasi pagkabreak namin naghanap agad ako ng kapalit nya kaya wala na akong panahon pa na makibalita sa kanya.
d. For a very long time. Wala na kasi kaming masyadong communication.

9. Nabalitaan mo na ikakasal na ang ex mo. Ano ang magiging reaction mo?

a. Kikidnapin ko ang ex ko! Sa akin lang sya dapat magpakasal! Sa akin!
b. Magpapadala ako ng regalo. Korona ng patay.
c. Yayayain ko na din ang latest date ko na magtanan na kami! Akala nya sya lang!
d. I will wish them the best.

10. What's your usual reaction kapag napapakinggan mo ang theme song nyo ng ex mo?

a. Araw-araw ko kayang nirerekwes sa Love Radio yan!
b. Pinapatay ko yung radyo. Minsan pati yung DJ na nagpatugtog nun gusto kong patayin.
c. Yan din ang ginagawa kong theme song ng mga nagiging boyfriends/girlfriends ko noh!
d. I will just listen to the song, or sing along with it.

11. After your break-up, ano ang ginawa mo para makarecover?

a. Gumawa ako ng suicide note.
b. Gumawa ako ng master plan kung paano ko susunugin ang bahay nila.
c. Sinagot ko yung hardinero ng kapitbahay na matagal nang may crush sa akin.
d. Pick up the shattered pieces of myself and decide that life still must go on. Panget na yun!

12. Kung meron kang gustong ibigay sa ex mo, ano yun?

a. Anak. Gusto kong maging ina ng kanyang mga anak.
b. Letter na may anthrax.
c. T-back ko. Remembrance lang.
d. Yung favorite CD nya na naiwan nya sa akin. Baka kasi hinahanap na nya, akala pa nya ninakaw ko.

13. Kung gagawing pelikula ang love story nyo ng ex mo, ano ang gusto mong maging title?

a. Romeo & Juliet (If I Can't Have You, Nobody Else Will)
b. The Grudge (Ultimate Revenge)
c. Ang Mga Lalaki sa Buhay ni Belya
d. I Love You, Goodbye

14. Kapag nakipagbalikan ang ex mo, tatanggapin mo ba sya uli?

a. I will accept him/her with open arms, open heart, open eyes, etc. Lahat naka-open! Nanginginig pa!
b. Oo! Tatanggapin ko sya tapos gagawin ko din sa kanya ang lahat ng ginawa nya sa akin! Para maramdaman nya ang lahat ng sakit, kirot at hapdi ng ginawa nya!
c. Pwede na rin. Pandagdag sa boylet/girlet collection.
d. No need. My life is much better without him/her.

15. After nyong mag-break, how long does it take bago ka makahanap ng iba?

a. Never! I still believe na kaming dalawa ang magkakatuluyan! I saw the signs!
b. Hindi na ako nagka-boyfriend uli! Galit ako sa mga lalaki! Pare-pareho lang sila!
c. Kinabukasan, sinagot ko na yung kapitbahay namin kahit di naman sya nanliligaw.
d. Almost a year. Ayoko kasing magpadalus-dalos.

16. After 25 years, muli mong nakita ang kalaro mo noong childhood days mo na naghulog sa yo sa imburnal. Ano ang gagawin mo?

a. I'm telling you, pagsisisihan mo ang araw na 'to kung bakit nabuhay ka pa!
b. Naranasan mo na bang mahulog sa imburnal? Pwes, mararanasan mo na yan ngayon! Uhm!
c. Do I know you? (sabay irap)
d. Hello! Musta ka na? (Tapos magkukwentuhan lang kami at pagtatawanan ang mga nangyari nung mga bata pa kami.)

17. After 5 years, muli mong nakita ang friend mo na may utang sa yong 100 pesos. Ano ang gagawin mo?

a. Aha! Nakita din kita sa wakas! Bayaran mo na ang utang mo, pati yung interes! Kung ayaw mong ipahuli kita sa pulis sa kasong estafa!
b. Buti naman at nakita uli kita! Aba! Naka-Guess ka na ngayon! Samantalang ako, hanggang P99 Store lang. Hindi kasi ako makabili dahil hanggang ngayon, hindi ka pa nagbabayad ng utang!
c. Haller?! Hindi ko na sya sisingilin. Ano ko cheap? I'm sure mas mayaman na ko sa kanya ngayon!
d. Hello! Long time, no see! Yada-yada (Wala lang, magkukwentuhan lang kami. Gift ko na sa kanya yung 100. Naniniwala naman ako sa kasabihang it's better to give than to receive.)

18. You walk into a restaurant at nakita mo ang ex mo dining out with a date. Ano ang gagawin mo?

a. Maglulupasay ako right there and then, gagawa ako ng eksena worthy of a FAMAS award! I'll plead with my ex to give us another chance.
b. Lalapitan ko sila at makikipagplastikan. Tapos "accidentally" masasagi ko yung drink sa lap ng date nya, at "accidentally" masasagi ko yung plato sa mukha ng ex ko.
c. Maghahanap agad ako ng pwedeng kalandian, tapos makikipag-PDA (public display of affection) ako within viewing distance of my ex. I'll show him/her na madami pa din nagkakagusto sa akin!
d. I'll go over to say a friendly hello. (And of course kikilatisin ko na din yung bagong ka-date, at kung di hamak na mas pogi/maganda ako, I'll gloat silently. Nyahaha.)

19. Complete the sentence. "Hindi ko patatawarin ang kaaway ko hangga't..."

a. ...siya'y nabubuhay, o hangga't hindi ko nasisira ang buong pagkatao nya.
b. ...hindi sya nagtatae ng blade.
c. ...hindi nya ko nililibre sa Starbucks.
d. ...hangga't di sya nagsosorry. Madali naman akong magpatawad eh.

20. Kung bibigyan ka ng Fairy Godmother mo ng chance to turn back time, gugustuhin mo pa bang balikan ang nakaraan nyo ng ex mo?

a. Opkors! Tapos irerekwes ko sa kanya na manatili na lang kami sa past at wag nang ibabalik pa sa present or future!
b. Ayoko! Dahil ayoko nang makasama pa ang herodes na yun kahit pa sa second life!
c. No need! Dahil happy na ako sa buhay ko sa piling ng mga boylets/girlets ko. Pero pwede na rin. Lamang-tyan din yan.
d. Haller! 2006 na noh! Uso pa ba ang mga Fairy Godmothers!

YEARNING TO KILL

In 3 days of figuring out things, i end up beating myself to death. I'm suffering from hypertension due to over thinking and stressing out what had happened. I thought of doing something that would possibly help me not to drew a bead on him and to over come this fucking nightmare but i ended up remembering the scenes and eventually, gave me the yearning to kill. Yes, I want to kill you pervert! I really do, i swear to God! How come I couldn't sleep and snore to life in my own bed? How? You asshole, don't ask for over OA forgiveness because what you did was worst and worst and worst and for God sake it doesn't help! You did not just betray me, you almost pump my heart out of my chest and SORRYs wouldn't make things back.. I'm burning so don't add too much fuel cause it's getting worst everyday! So please stop acting like an angel cause you're not. You may look one but dang it, don't let me prove it to the public! Don't piss me off! And why don't you piss off and leave us alone?!! I'm begging you pervert, don't let me glance on your idiotic face again cause I wanna ,,i,,!

Let's talk about snake

Pulang Kabayo, Serbesang maka San Miguel, Tanyag na Pulang Novellino, Berdeng Malboro at Asul na Chippy ang kaagapay namin sa okasyong wala namang pinagdidiriwangan. Dito ko napagtanto ang isang artikulong nakakalason, ANG AHAS sa bloga na matatagpuan sa PaksheT Happens.

Ang ahas daw ay manunulot o sa kawikaan ng dakilang lenguahe ng Pilipino "Epal." Hahaha! Epal ka pala eh!! Oo, may naisip akong butete, bulate, atbp pero sa talaan ng mga naging ahas sa dalawangpung taong pagkakalibing ko sa porgatoryong ito, iisa lang ang maituturing kong cobra. nges hu:)) hahaha! Bakit nga ba ahas ang tawag sakanila? Ayon sa mapangahas na manunulat, may kinalaman daw ito sa instinctive
nature ng snakes sa paghu-hunt ng kanilang pagkain. So mahilig silang kumain? Teka iisipin kong mabuti.. nyahaha. at wait ah, wala kayang INSTINCT yung ahas na tinutukoy ko! :P Well hindi ko kayang sabihing nagsisimula pa lang umepal ang sawang ito kaya hindi Epal ang tawag sakanya, ahas po ladies and gentlemen. AHAS.. napaka malaking ahas. Amen! Praise the lord.

Matinik gumalaw ang isang ahas lalo na kapag simula't sapul ay praktisado ka na. Alam mo yon? Iba-iba ang galaw ng ahas, sa literal na salita kumikilos ang isang ahas dahil sa mascular construction. Dito nakikita ang iba't ibang klase ng uri ng locomotion, sa madaling salita kaya nilang lumipat sa isang lugar papunta sa isa pa. Kaya pala, lahat ng pinagsawaan mo kuno kaya rin nilang pagsawaan. FOOM

Well kung sabagay ang ang pinaka paborito kong bangus nga kahit boneless na ,minsan may naiiwang tinik pa rin kaya kahit anong gawing mong pagtra-transform, nakakalason ka parin.
Eksalente na ako sa mga ganyang moves dahil nakakahiya naman saakin, LAHAT NA LANG NG PWEDENG AHASIN SA BUHAY KO NAAHAS MO NA! Pero dahil idol ko si Bob Ong at si Eros Atalla, hindi ako magpapapekto sayo. Puwedeng puwede kitang patayin sa makababoy na pagpatay lols.

Ano nga ba ang mga senyales na maiispatan mo?
"Kadalasang ginagawa nya eh ang pakikipag-close dun sa pinopormahan nya para di mahalata na may kakaiba pala syang pakay. Kadalasan din dadalhan nya ng pagkain, tatawagan kung nakauwi na, ihahatid o sinusundo sa trabaho/skul, bigyan ng mumunting regalo, at kung anu-ano pa na ginagawa ng isang manliligaw -- pero "as a friend" nya itong ginagawa kasi nasa isang relasyon pa ang kanyang biktima"

Kung gayun, paano naman bumibigay ang isang biktima?
Ang pakiramdam kasi na maging espesyal sa isang tao ay napaka malaking bagay. Sapagkat hindi nito maaring sukatin kung gaano kabigat ang timbang ng bawat isa. "Minsan umaabot sa point na ikinukumpara nya ang kanyang kasalukuyang ka-relasyon sa epal, at dito nagsisimula ang kanyang pagdadalawang-isip."

Ngunit hindi lahat ng tao ang may ganitong pag-iisip.. ayon nga sa may akda, hindi magiging isang ahas ang tawag sakanya kung hindi magpapaahas ang biktima. Aguy! Pinurga ata ako ng kamalasan at lahat nalang ng naging parte sa buhay ko ay maituturing na ahas? O sadyang ginawa ka ng Dyos para saakin? hmm.. O, siya, sige, hulog ka ng langit..angel ng mga demonyo :)) Maaari ding sadyang mabilis lang matukso ng temptasyon ang mga nilalang.. pero maaari ding taglay mo lang ang karanasan ng pang aagaw. BAW!

Bagama't nais ko pa ring pasalamatan ka, sana masaya ka. Wag kang mag-alala, iniisip ko rin baka ganyan talaga ang takbo ng buhay mo. Sana makahanap ka pa ng ahas-able! Yeah baby!:))

Hint: Tawagin na lamang natin siya sa pangalang Jessie or puwede ding Bartolome!!



Karagdagang paalaala ni Ginoong Gega.
alpshzzz: ahas ba un? alpshzzz: anaconda un eh d ba

He just went FILIPINO because we have no rice!

Oh here.. If you search the meaning of "FILIPINO" particularly in www.urbandictinary.com, certainly, you'll be dancing out of your race. ahahah!



Filipino
1. Filipinos are fickle lot. Hard working, yet never accomplishing anything worthwhile as a people.

2. If they had a weed whacking event in the olympics the Philippines would win gold every time.

3.Typically a well meaning, newly immigrating Registered Nurse, or a Pinay RN who has been here for 20 years yet is still skilled with broken & second-rate english, proudly pluralizing every noun in their comprehensive vocabulary such as "paperworks", "informations", & "da poods"(the food). Filipino Nurse: Ate Lu Lu, I hab (have) eh na dar (another) ad mish shon (admission) and lots ub PAPERWORKS to pi neesh (finish), who deed you say needed dee pain medee cay shuns? (medication) OMG 4.any one person who likes rice and goes crazy if there is no rice available. Man! You seen him?! He just went filipino because we have no rice!!!

5.people from an island located in southeast asia (not east asia) called philippines.

living here for more than 5 years..
i find that most filipinos are

1. lazy
(if you wanna get something done in this country
you gotta wait at least 2 weeks.. when you can get it
done in 3 days in the states.. -filipinos, come on it's
true.. if you've never gone out of your country
well too bad)

2. filipinos think all the foreigners are rich

3. their language sounds annoying..
(tagal tagal mahal ko kang yang kayo nang)

4. filipino women are desperate to marry foreigners..
because the filipino men are too poor
they wanna get out of poverty through marrying
a rich foreigner (usually age of 60+ you can see a lot
of filipino young woman& white old grandpa couples
in the philippines)

5. filipinos think that the philippines is better than
indonesia or malaysia or other neighboring countries of
southeast asia when they're all equally poor

6. they are like little kids. they just wanna hve fun
that's why their country's so poor

7. They think UP, which is apparently... the best
university in the philippines .. is one of the
top universities of the world. when in fact, its
rank is so low that its name is no where to be found
on the booklet of top 500 universities in the world
(a supplement to Time in 2002)

8. THEY ARE SHORT.
5' is tall in this country.

9. they are noisy.
their babbling mouths never shut up.

10. filipinos are desperate american wanna bes
and they're such copy cats they must copy everything
from the states like their tv shows and they wanna
have their children born in the states so that
they can be american citizens

11. their taglish or watever it's called,
which is mixture of their language called tagalog
and english, is ANNOYING
don't fuck our language up why do you must copy
everything from us just speak your damn language
don't mix it with ours and make it sound hella
fucking irritating and annoying

12. their diet is meat and rice

KFC here sucks they sell fried chickens with rice what the hell

english with filipino accent is freaken annoying


6.Wow, you must be Filipino. Look at your flat nose, and brand-name clothing! TALAGA


7.all filipinos are Asians because there from asia. shut the fuk up we arent asain we are pacific islander.

8.A filipino is someone who originates from the Philippines. Theyre basically, a huge mix of Asian with Spanish. Most don't have chinky eyes, most are big, and very pretty. Filipinos are VERYVERYVERY family oriented. (i'm gonna start saying 'we' cause i'm filipino.) we have a family party for EVERYONES birthday, and everyone always comes. aunts. uncles. cousins. second cousins. Filipinos usually have Med-sized houses - small, but boy, if you take a look at their bank accounts, we probably have more than you. Filipinas are most likely Registered Nurses! We're NOTNOTNOT lazy. and person who said we type from 10-20 wpm, i type at 122 WPM, so bettch, please. We like our rice. Rice is our best friend. We DONT eat with chopsticks. We either eat with our bare hands, or use a combination with a spoon and fork. If you're a right hand, put the spoon in your right hand. put it facing sideways on your plate, so the scoop side is facing you, not up. down, or the other way. use your fork, to push whatevers in front of it, onto the spoon. We have really good foods, as people ALWAYS tell me. We're known for our fricken LOUDNESS. we're loud, its great. i dont wanna have a family who's fricken quiet as hell. whats the fun in that. We buy whatever we want. if we like it, we buy it. who cares about the price. Not all filipinos are short, dumbbbassssseeeeeesss. i'm 5'7. sure most are short. but. there are alot of tall ones too. filipinas are usually pretty, and filipino boys are... okay. i guess. Filipino girls want a white or dominiican, or otherspanish husbands, just to have a caramel colored baby, but we marry who we fall in love with. BAD- many parents, or... like. 30 and above people from the philippines are racist. this is what i hate. GOOD- we're outgoing, and dont give a sh*t on what everyone thinks. some have big lips, some have med-sized. known as Asians, or pacific islanders. some are religious.... veeerrryyy. I dont know bout the rest, but i lovee guys who're mixed (: watch TFC 24/7 , and let me tell you. ITS ANNOYING. we're not annoying, you're just whiny, and needs to go out more. If you're shopping at themall, or wherever, if your mom is all the way on the other side, she will scream "(YOUR NAME) OBER HURR" we have big butts. props to spanishhh c(: we hate when people steal our parking spaces. clearly, the nicest people you'll meet. . . and the bi**hiests. oh and... yea, our house is not the biggest thing, but you would see us with coach purses, laccoste (WE ADORE LACCOSTE) hollister. dooney and burke. oh and. yeah, we have ALOT oof money. like my mom, she keeps 1000 dollars in case of emergency in her pocket, or purse, or whatever. and she sometimes goes into the mall to spend it because its an 'emergency' . . so she stocks up again. ay, arr yuh pinished wit your pood ? go eat some more. we hab plenty. , oy, sandok some rice por us please. tanks. okay okay let me get a pictoore ob yuh under dat tree. how old ar yuh turning? tree? por? pive? six? can yuh pass me a purr? did yuh just part/furt? boy: oh yess, that girls got back. she bangin" boy#2: dayumm, your right.

9.the typical citizen of backword country. there are two kinds of filipinos, good filipino and bad filipino. filipinos have laziness caused by tropical climate. "bahala ka" filipino seems they have no sexual identities. aka "bakla" or "bading"

10.1. type at a rate of 10-20WPM
2. maids that keep houses clean
3. lovers of karaoke
4. have worse broken english than singaporeans and malaysians.

1.
filipino1: "h----i------"
filipino2: "h-----o---w-----is-----u"

2.
s'porean: "(insert philo name here), make sure you crean the house whiles i go work can?"
filipino maid: "yes sir, i always keep house crean"

3.
filipino1: "after tha party is there karoake?"
filipino2: "ofcorZz the kBOX alwys happn'n here"

11.Filipinos are annoying. I wish i was Filipino. I am just a stupid motherfucker that talks about Filipinos because I want to be one. OH JOY!! THEIR IS A FILIPINO!! I AM GOING TO SAY HI TO THEM!! Look MR or MRS Filipinos are NOT lazy. They are definetly hard working ass people. Maybe your the lazy one. My mommy works two to three jbos and we do not copy your shit. YOU COPY OURS SO STOP WITH THAT YOU FUCKING PIECE OF NOTHING!! Their voices are not annoying. Maybe your annoyed because you like them so much. Sorry for the truth lame-o. MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.. FILIPINO!!!!!!!!! " CHEESES HUGELY" BYE BYE

That girl is a Filipino. You can tell. She dresses up nicely and she stays original.

12.filipinos r only called pacific islanders coz people r dumb.. they dunno wassup so yea..right now, it's not shockin that 9/10 filipino is part spanish..

13.Asians with the largest penis

<<>>

<<>ck>>

14.dam! whos that cutie?
oh its that new girl, i guess shes a filipina.

15.People who come from the Philippines (in Southeastern Asia), a nation greatly influenced by Spanish, American and Japanese cultures, to name a few. They speak Filipino as their national language as well as their native dialects, the most widespead of which are Tagalog and Bisaya. Tangina! Ang daming nagkukunwaring Filipino sila! :p

16.Brown, proud, slick, fast, smart, hard-working, caring, loving and sincere people originating from the Philippines.

Putang inang shiet!!


So hell yeah!.. TAWAGIN SI PACQUIAO!

Paalala ni G. Bob Ong

Naisip ko lang ang mga dedikasyon ko sa mga taong tumutugma sa mga linyang pag-ibig ni Idol Bob. Pasensya na, Tao lang! Iba ang walang ginagawa sa gumagawa ng wala!

"Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali?
alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig
e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?"

( Para kay RJ at kay Pao)



"Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo.
Malay mo sa mga susunod naaraw ayaw mo na din sa kanya,
naunahan ka lang."

( Para kay Tart, solid, liquid, gas?)


"Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya.
Walang gamot sa tanga kundi
pagkukusa."

(Para kay Drew at pati na rin sayo Ange)


"Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pag tinamaan ng pagmamahal.
Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon."

( Miko para sayo)


"Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo.
Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

( hehe, Ange alam mo na, para rin sayo to!)

"Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa
o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak,
pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs.
Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas,
humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo
dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier
at hindi ka nila iisahan."

( para sa Spesh mo, Ange.)

"Kung hindi mo mahal and isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo
para mahalin ka nya.."

(Normz, diktahin mo yan sa laham mo!)

"Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo.
Kung gusto mo mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa
para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of World Records
at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang.
Nosi balasi. wag mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong
susubok humarang sa'yo.
Kung hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon,
hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira sa jupiter ngayon.
Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter
dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon.
Kita mo yung moral lesson?"

(Rj para sayo, gusto mo maging scientist diba? Nakita mo raw ba yung moral lesson?)


"Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa.
Tatlo, lima, sampung taon sa hinaharap,
mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo
at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng kapareha
dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling mag-breakdance.
Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman.
Sa paglipas ng panahon,
maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan
e nagmumukha ring pandesal.
Maniwala ka."

( G. Alphie sakto to para sayo!)

"ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko."

( FOOM, aangkinin ko na to!)


"hinahanap mo nga ba ako o ang kawalan ko?"

( Mga linyang maaaring ulit-ulitin ni Vega.)

"hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay
ay kasinungalingan na ito.
at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohanan. "

( Drew!!! inaalay ko sa iyong kabiyak)

"Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

(masakit man aminin, Ange tatanggapin ko to? Ikaw ba?)

"Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon ng
kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buhay nila.
Dahil wala nang mas kawawa pa sa mga taong literado
pero hindi nagbabasa."

(Mr. Gian Kho... mabatukan ka sana nito!)

"Mag-aral maigi. Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral,
manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan
ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok
o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher.
(Haaay, sarap!)."

(Karl, walang pasuk sa Sunday!)


"Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lang yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay!

Tandaan mo:
magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!

Munting paalala ni G. Bob Ong

Survey

Pampalipas ng oras: Survey (from Ange)

What is one thing you would love to happen tomorrow?

-Get drunk

Do you bite your fingernails?

-No. Finger licking good lang po!

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?

-Oh Yeah!! Si Rj :P

Do you have unlimited texting?

-Of course!!

Where were you at 9pm Wednesday night?

-Sa Neatheads Computer shop.. sinamahan magprint si Ange

What happened at 6:00 am today?

-Ay putangina!! putangina wag mo nang alamin putangina sinusumpa ko yang mga oras na yan pota! WTF!!

Have you kissed a girl in the last three days?

-Uhm.. beso beso with Gelay!

Does anyone call you babe?

-Yeah, my poker buddy and some significant others lols!

Do you want someone back in your life?

-Actually, i didn't lose him:))

What jewelry are you wearing?

-Bracelets and necklace.

Do you drink tea?

-Everyday!

What's the number one thing you want in your life right now?

-Happiness.

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?

-Dental Check-up, lunch with Lucky and play poker.

What are you wearing?

-Boxers and abandoned shirts! lols

Are you younger than 21?

-Forever!

Do you currently want to scream at the top of your lungs?

-YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Were you happy when you woke up today?

-I didn't sleep and if I, I'll go for NO!

Do you remember what you were like a year ago?

-Sorry, can't remember anything..basta alam ko humabol ako sa lamig ng pasko pero i don't remeber anything nyahha!

How old will you be in 13 months?

-21

What are your plans for later?

-Catch some sleep hopefully!

Could you ever smile at a stranger?

-Yes.

What would someone find UNDER your bed?

-Spare bed, ash tray, baso, cigerette butts at sandamakmak na pony tail.

Who taught you how to ride a bike?

-No one.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

-Not everyone.

Does anyone like you?

-Yes. No humble effect gg

What is your favourite thing to eat?

-Chicken inasal ni Mother, Sinigang ng lola ni Ange at Porkchop ni Mother-in-low.

Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

-Warm cause i love to get drunk and get naked in the beach!!

Have you ever went to someone's house without them knowing?

-I think so.

What is the first green thing to your right?

-AMF, takip ng paminta! WATF

Are you an adventurous person?

-Super!!

Have you ever judged someone before getting to know them?

-Alot of time.

Do you like school?

-Uhm..absolutely basta't wala kang maiispatan na demonyo.

What's the last thing you thought about now?

-Ay nako wag na, nakakaloka!

Have you ever kissed in the rain?

-Ata.. hahaha!

Is there someone you want to be with right now?

-I don't know yet. (Please don't be too impulsive please lols!)

So far, what have you learned from relationships?

-Promise is fucking big word, as in BIG!!

Are you single?

-Technically Yes! haha

Are you happy about that?

-Hindi ko alam, depende sa oras sa panahon sa tema ng sitwasyon. Hala may ganon pa! :))

Are you bored?

-Oo, pero pakiramdam ko mabilis ang oras ngayon.

Are you sad?

-I don't know.

Are you Italian?

-No

Are you plastic?

-No

Are you happy?

-No. Galit ako!

Are you cool?

-Yes dude!

Are you chinese?

-Mula sa tumutubo kong kalyo hanggang sa patay na buhuk ko.

What are you doing this week?

-Magrereport, magtututor sa dalawang baboy at maglalasing!

TEN FACTS

1. Initials- LSDS

2. Nicknames- Kukaii, Kukie, She, Lowela, Chibay

3. Birth place-Manila

4. Hair color-Brown

5. Hair style-Panggagong style lang, maiksi sa harap mahaba sa likod.

6 Eye color-Brown

7. Birthday-September 17, 1988

8. Mood-Wala ako sa mood!

9. Favorite colors-Red, Green, Black and Brown

10. Left or right handed-Right

TEN THIS OR THAT!

1. Love or money- Sa ngayon, pera muna. Hindi totoo yung money can't buy happiness!

2. Hard liquor or beer?-Both

3. Cats or dogs? Ew!

4. A few best friends or many regular friends?-Few ones!

5. television or internet-Internet

6. Pepsi or coke?-Coke

7. Wild night out or romantic night in?-Wild night out

8. Money or Happiness?-Foods!

9. Night or day?-Night

10. YM or phone?-YM

7 PREFERENCES IN A RELATIONSHIP

1. Smile or eyes: Eyes! Eyes ni Wenty:))

2. Light or dark hair: Any

3. hugs or kisses: Hug me >:D

4. pink hair or not: Yuck ah!

5.hook up or relationship: Relasyon shempre!

6. Trust or love? Love cause when you love automatic na yung trust.

7. Long distance or close? HAHA!! Ange?! Close of course.

Last phone call you received?

-Ange

Last person/people you hang out with?

-No comment!

Last person to text you:

-Lucky my churva!

Last person you kissed:

-Si Pao.

Matulog ka na bata!!

"Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag
natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?"

-Bob Ong

Thought of the day

Wag magpluck ng kilay
para maganda ang buhay

-Inang Carol

Cray CX1 – 64 core supercomputing right at your desktop

Think of supercomputers and you tend to think of multi-million dollar machines that easily take up a football field, with miles and miles of cabling and cooling systems running beneath the floors. That's long been generally true, but not anymore. Cray has announced that it teamed up with Microsoft and Intel to produce a desktop supercomputer. Yes, it will sit on a desktop. In addition, maybe just as surprising, it has a starting price of US$25,000. The Cray CX1 supercomputer uses up to 8 nodes and 16 Intel Xeon processors — either dual-core or quad-core. It is the first Cray machine to use Intel processors. The CX1 has up to 4 terabytes of internal storage and 64GB of memory per node. The machine also comes pre-installed with Windows HPC Server 2008 and interoperates with Linux. Won't all the other CIOs drool when you show off your datacenter? Dude, think of how fast Exchange will run on that puppy. No more worrying about the CEO complaining his Outlook is running too slow.

The Cray CX1 $25k price by comparison with the world's most powerful supercomputer, the IBM-built Roadrunner, carries a price tag of approximately US$120 million. Run at the Los Alamos National Laboratory, the hybrid system runs AMD Opteron processors and Cell chips, and this summer sustained a speed of 1.026 quadrillion calculations per second.

For God sake, give me one!! :))

Chalk Story

This is a true story of something that happened at USC.

madami daw! AMF

Habang nag-aaral kami ni RJ ng Favorite subject niya (Science)


Nang tinanong ko siya
The Union of the SPERM CELL with the tiny undeveloped seeds at the base of the pistil is called? -

"Anong Sperm? Matagal ko na yan naririnig sa classmate ko eh, "Madami daw siyang sperrrr"

"HOY!"
Napanganga ako amf.

"Basta ang sagot Fertilization!" "yun na lang tandaan mo mo!!

Pasig River of thanks

"The best birthdays of all are those that haven't arrived yet" - I thought of it last Sept 19, 2008 hahaha.. the next day before our celebration. :))

Yes.. Me and my beloved significant others (Gian) would like to thank all the creatures for joining us.

It is lovely, when we forget all birthdays (Sorry), including our own (kuno!) , to find that somebody remembers us. Thank you so much.

To us, old age is always 17 years old. Sorry, it looks that matter after all coz' no wise man ever wished to be younger. YEAH!! Old age isn't so bad, not so worst when you consider the alternative right?

"The secret of staying young is to live honestly, faithfully, eating slowly, and lying - lie about your age!!" hahaha!!

Of course, Liquor would be one reason and a cure for aging. We are like wines. Some turn to vinegar, but the best improve with age. /gg

Growing old like Gian is like being penalized for a crime you have not committed. You need to paint new things and plant all horrors and grief in your butt. Tearing every piece shit we love, brushing every sadness we have and damn forgive all the people that causes us pain!

HAHAHA! Thank you for not totally ruining our birthday Kenneth and Terio but it was such a ROLF!

"Ano ang tawag sa gitna"
Ng Black Label at Blue Label! Itim Na Baka Putangina!! Its Bullshit!!

And once again, Pasig River of thanks to Cathe, Clarisha, Mike,

Alvin, Dan, Rene, Ritz,

Terio, Xave, Marvs,

Jim, Kenneth, Jen, Jacques, Dassi, Averyne,

Alphie, Ak Ak, Marshi,

Dale, Jol, Ander, Lars,

Normz, Drew, Marie,

Karen, Jherx, Chelea, Beng Beng Rafferty,

especially to mother & pupsi,


to our one and only Lucky and Ange

When I'm lost and in special need of help, the good deed is usually done by somebody on whom I have no claim. I love you Tart, Ange and Ahya.

I wanna thank all those who came
and cancelled all their appointments
or whatever things they must do in order to join us in our celebration
especially those who participated
in the videos for me and how could I forget my TART
who made all things possible for wihout her,
there would be no happy memories but just an ordinary birthday party
for me and hers too. - Gian Kho

Once again, Thank you, How wonderful and beautiful a day can be when you guys touches it!
We are only "young" once, but still we can stay immature, PROMISE!!

And that's why religious oppose
celebrating birthdays!

HAHAHA! peace tart
and

happy birthday!

NOT SWIMMING BACK TO SHORE

Clenching my teeth as I concentrate to listen with I by 6cyclemind. Yes.. I was under attack again- again and again! I considered it for a moment, every words, everything...

"I wag mo nang alisin
Ang nag iisang panaginip Na ika'y magbabalik
Nagsasamang masaya
At walang pagkukulan"

I listened hard again but i could only hear my heart beating unsteadily.

And because i was trapped with Annamangga's "SYNONYM OF IT", I' am again hurt! I can feel you Bru. I'm sorry. I could hear your muffled sadness and even the sounds of your laughter. The difference, the conflict, the change, the unlikeness of you.
You were once happy.. Sa tapat ng C and E - and if i could still recall everything you said, at isa lang ang masasabi ko, YOU'RE CRAZY!
Yeah Happy pig! But could it be TWICE?
Downstream we sought them.. but there is no turning back. Love has been define in so many ways, so many idiot ways. We're not blind but deafness occur sometimes. How clear are the mountains after the new rain? huh?

We're tired to exert the tiniest piece left to us. Love is irrevocable. It is impossible to retract. It is unchangeable!

We could remember everything perfectly!!
Walang halong bahid..We could still envision the truth.
Honesty is all we got. Ayaw niyo ba yun, boni fide offer na nga!

i sthearing it. saying the name,
hearing the name, like taking a damn bullet.
-Angelica Vega

Can't you see? Over the sounds of her delighted laughter, she was miserably incarcerated with you. Damn it!

We let ourself drift with the memories left behind, we burst every single available moment to party not as human but animal. We face every damn bitterness with Johnnie Walker. WE drink a great deal! We sing wild songs! We are already immune of the taste.. nicotine is all we got!

what am i doing? i don't know really,
i'm just..."going with the flow" the fucking flow..
i'm not doing anything, not fighting the current,
not swimming back to shore where lies my sanity..im just....
going with it. waiting for the numbness to overcome me.
-Angelica Vega

Yeah, "NOT SWIMMING BACK TO SHORE".. and "WANTING FOR THE NUMBNESS TO OVERCOME" - What else could we do? Our days pass in emptyness!

There was only one life to live, we are not vampires! We could not live forever! But what does all this sufferings amount to? Will it break Buddha's 4 Noble of Truths? Or it happens because we believe in kismet?

But still I can't believe we got ourself sucked into this mess!

I guess sun does shine without you. We are just still gasping the air back, we're we really belong. We were only few feet away from happiness. Sooner or later, it will fade. What a life to offer.

"ilang bote ba ang kailangan ubusin,
ilang galong luha ang dapat iyakin,
ilang sigarilyo ang dapat hithitin,
ilang bacteria and pwedeng isaksak sa kokote
para matabunan ang iyong alaala

sabihin mo saakin
kung paano ko pupulitin
at muling bubuohin(tama ba?)
ang pusong nabasag at tinapon ng basta"

-Angelica Vega


I want to dedicate this emo entry to my one and only girlfriend.
Tangina mo eh noh! nandadamay ka ng kaemohan! haha /kis

ditching is healthy

OK.. Today is 15th of September "MONDAY" Bullshit! I hate it-- I hate my Spanish!! NO! NO! Not Spanish!! Hola, pizzara, borrador, silla, filisofia, artes, gwapa, regular, del padre del hijo, veinte, denada, muy bien, chicas, asuente, estoy, donde vive, unibersidad, blah blah blah blah de puta!!

Spending an hour would kill me.. and unfortunately, i got 3hours to spontaneously sigh. My Prof..Ah.. err.. Shit.. makes me want to jump off my seat. I hate to extemporize!!

"Señorita, can you spell arquitectura?"

"Ah....A- ere- cu- i- te- e- ce- te- u- ere- a" Err Punyeta, Fuck! Nervous you know?!

Medieval war?.. Terrorist?
More than!!

and Now, I'm finally home.
Truly, ditching is healthy!

COOL PERSON TEST

COOL PERSON TEST
click

haha bullshit!!ü

Are YOU a GOOD LIAR?

ARE YOU?

You Are a Pretty Good Liar

Your lies are somewhat believable, but sometimes you get caught. Work on keeping your body language and emotions calm. And you'll be a better liar in no time! AM I? DANG IT!! HAHA

TWILIGHT- "WHO ARE YOU?"

TAKE THE QUIZ!!

You scored as a Alice Cullen

You're Alice. You're a vampire who can see into the future once a person has actually made a decision. You have no memories of you're human life or of the pain of being reborn. You constantly walk like you're dancing and are very supportive of Edward and Bella.

Alice Cullen 75% Bella Swan 75% Jasper Cullen 63% Charlie Swan 63% Esme Cullen 63% Carlisle Cullen 63% Edward Cullen 50% James 50% Rosalie Cullen 25% Emmett Cullen 25%

I'm the man!!

In Memory of "BOOM"

Life is short, but it is long when we know how to live it,

If we know where to spend and live our every minute,

Time is a living river and she waits for no one,

Life is a calm river, beautiful if walked with someone.

Now, you had stopped along the banks to rest,

As we continue to endure our tests,

Spending your time wisely you had done,

Seeing the pour of love and friendship and memories you won.

Thanks for travelling with us, you will never be forgotten.

Monica 'Boom' Francisco

1989-2008

Never Got The Priviledge of Knowing You Better.

Atenista Vs Tomasino

I got this to My classmate (Cyrone) haha.. tagal ko na to hinahanap eh :))

a friend of mine here in multiply (Chris Chug thanks for allowing me to post this blog) posted this blog..the one who made this blog is an ateneo student (atenista) whose name is MATT QUINTOS..who always makes blog about insulting THOMASIANS..and he entitled it as BLUE AND YELLOW.. it really pissed me of when i read this blog because as a former thomasian student i never encountered such people that he described when i was at UST..and he even called us HAMPASLUPA..the hell ryt? and i never had an atenean friend who talks like that about thomasians anyways..this is a funny blog so just enjoy reading it and..try to calm yourself down=p



"blue and yellow"

fuck talaga, nanakawan ako.

yesterday i made punta to the birthday party of my high school friend who is currently making aral sa ust ngayon. syempre im not gonna go na sana kasi puro mga friends nya from ust yung nandun, ede im gonna be put out of place lang from their uber mediocre culture, pero sumama na rin ako out of shame para sa friend kong magtatampo raw sakin if hindi ako pumunta. besides, birthday naman nya so i made bigay na. and sabi nung isa pa naming high school barkada, she's gonna go rin daw so may kasama naman ako. eh fuck, hindi nagpunta. so ayun, na-op rin ako sa mga super mediocre na thomasians, at kinailangan ko talagang magtiis sa sobrang tangang kultura ng mga hampaslupa.

and guess what, speaking of hampaslupa, ninakawan ba naman ako ng mga pakshet na bobong hindi naman nakapasa ng acet?! i didnt bring food kasi dahil nga sobrang biglaan lang yung invitation ng friend ko, but if ever napaaga siya, i will make volunteer pa talaga para sagutin yung catering. so i told her about it. "bhe," i said, bhe ang tawagan namin kasi we used to role-play as lovers nung hayskul, "wala akong dalang food eh. okay lang ba?"

she told me na okay lang naman daw. and then i made banat a joke, "sorry bhe ah, lam mo kasi hindi ako sanay magdala ng food sa mga outings, so i made sure na lang that i made dala a lot of money."

actually, it's not a joke. as usual, marami talaga akong pera. around seven hundred yata. i know that's still kinda sad for a super talino and super mayamang atenista like me, pero since we're gonna go to a sobrang mumurahing resort lang naman nearby and since super mumurahin lang ng mga thomasians, i thought it's not a bad amount na.

im so fucking sure talaga na may pera ako nun. kasi mom gave me five hundred bucks before she left home for work (my mom manages our own technology company nga pala). plus yung halos three-hundred na natira from last week's allowance, i have about eight hundred. eh syempre i had to communicate with my high school friend. but then she cant text me kasi i'm smart and she's using sun cellular (my god, imagine that! how cheap. kinagat ang super amoy-araw na offer ng pang-promding network. buhay-squatter talaga). so i had to buy that 50-peso load na seven days unlimited texts (which is so, oh my god, kadiri talaga). ede ayan, halos seven hundred na yung money ko.

eh malay ko ba naman na while i made that joke, meron palang thomasian who was making pakinig to me. well of course makikinig talaga sya sakin. atenista ako eh. whatever comes out of my mouth is so full of brilliant ideas. well anyway, ayun. so habang we were making langoy to the eww so init na tubig dahil siguro nagdisperse na yung heat from those super kadiring putikang thomasian bodies, may mga naiwan (leftovers) na thomasians dun sa table where we made lagay our bags. and im sure, someone was making panood to me while i took off my shirt to make pakita my super attractive atenean body and i made lagay my authentic tommy hilfiger wallet sa bag ko. and then yun, while i was making tiis talaga na wag masuka dun sa tubig out of respect na lang sa high school friend kong may birthday kahit na diring-diring na talaga me to those retards in the pool, one of those cock-sucking thomasians made bukas my bag and stole my money. so fucking kakainis.

oh well, wala naman akong evidence pero common sense na lang na sila yun. mahirap lang sila eh. i didnt make hanap na kung who among them yung nagnakaw ng money ko. i mean, thomasians are poor fucked up pitsqueaks who are so uhaw sa tubig españa (uste), just like what my super brilliant fil12 profs say when they talk about post-modernism and marxism (i bet none of those stupidong thomasians know what im talking about). you know, yung mga super poor na mga anak-putik like them are sometimes left without a choice other than making nakaw on other people's money, so instead of making galit to them dahil baka mamaya kung ano pang super smart na salita ang lumabas from my purely atenean mouth, i just thought na it's my way of helping poor people.

although syempre, i also felt pagkainis for them. i mean, we ateneans, even though we're the smartest people in the world, we have feelings too. there was a time nga talaga na gusto ko na sanang makipag-fist fight with them. they're so mayabang kasi eh, despite the fact that i made tiis to my own emotions, cuz we ateneans are not making padala to our urges. we use our brains. there's this thomasian guy who thinks he's so darn fucking hot that while i was making shower in the (duh) shower, he walked around naked ba naman? i cant make paniwala nga how he managed to be that confident about himself. well of course i didnt look. i mean, we ateneans always have bigger members. pero the nakakainis na part here is he was like making lakas his boses, "oy maghuhubad ako ah. tangina pare pakialam ko sa titi mo meron din ako nyan. ganun nga kami sa locker room ng boys sa ust eh, lahat kami nakahubo."

so mediocre talaga. he's like making parinig to me pa talaga?! kaya nga i got even more disgusted eh. i mean, we ateneans, even though we're guys? we dont just go around the public naked cuz our bodies are so mamahalin. like, if you make your body public, it's so cheap. we ateneans have always been told through our jesuit, catholic, filipino education that our body is the temple of the holy spirit. no wonder sobrang babang uri ng mga people ang mga thomasians.

sigh.. they're so grabe talaga. of course i didn't make sermon on him na kasi he's gonna have access pa to quality ateneo education. pero im never gonna go out na talaga with those dimwitted cocksuckers. hay naku, thomasians... they so fucking make chupa to my atenean dick. kaya nga bagay na bagay talaga silang magchampion sa uaap season 69 eh.

siguro it's just that we ateneans aren't in the same dumb stupid boat like the thomasians. if that happened, maghahalo ang mga kulay namin. result? green. away talaga to...

"god is a thomasian"

since napag-usapan na rin lang natin ang mga thomasians sa previous blog post ko, i remembered tuloy the time when (confetti made of recycled manila paper) ust finally won the championship against (fireworks imported from hawaii and a red carpet from hollywood) ateneo, may isa na naman akong high school friend galing sa eww so mabahong uste na nagyabang sakin tungkol sa championship nilang mga chuapero.

habang pinag-ayos ko ng kama yung muchacha naming graduate ng nursing sa ust kasi matutulog na ko nun, may tatak pa man din ng ateneo yung bedsheet ko pati yung mga pillows, nagtext yung high school friend ko. knowing na sa ateneo ako nag-aaral, i mean.. sa batch kasi namin ng about 100 people, ako lang ang nakapasa ng ateneo, yung anim sa eww-so-mabaho-rin na up, yung iba sa ust, yung iba sa skwelahan ng mga berdeng baka na may beri-beri pa yata kaya naninilaw yung isang gilid (feu yata yung name ng school, di ko kilala eh), tas yung iba sa mga pipichuging schools na lang from all around the corner, ako lang *ahem* ako lang ang kapasa ng ateneo. and that happens in real life (duh, nangyari na nga sakin eh). out of about 100 high school graduates, isa lang sa kanila ang nakakapasa ng ateneo. pag bumagsak, dun sila sa mga less competent schools.

so anyway, knowing na ako nga lang sa batch namin ang nakapag-aral sa ateneo, he texted me. he was making asar to me daw na nanalo sila. of course, on my part, ang yabang ng dating nya. but then i realized, thomasian to, nagpapapansin lang, naghahanap lang ng dahilan para itext ng isang atenistang katulad ko para i-adore nya for the rest of his life at i-save sa inbox ng cellphone nyang dadalhin nya sa loob ng kabaong nya until death, at hindi nya pa rin buburahin yung reply ko till then kasi nga pagdating daw sa gate of heaven hahanapan ka raw ni san pedro ng isang text message from an atenean (imagine that, sa sobrang taas ng quality of education namin, pati heaven narating?). so ayun, instead of making galit to him, i told him na lang, "haha. congrats."

i mean, we ateneans are really good when it comes to practicing sportsmanship. so ayun, instead of making puna his obvious na kayabangan about the championship, i accepted our defeat as a real man, as a real *ahem* atenean. but then of course friend ko naman yun kaya i also made biro to him. so sabi ko, "if i know, chamba lang yun."

and do you know what he replied to me?! this is.. oh my god, so against the fourth commandment of the lord our god! sabi ba naman nya, "god is a thomasian." imagine, he used the name of the lord our god in vain! sobrang bad talaga ng values education sa ust. i mean, kilala pa man rin daw sila as the oldest catholic university in asia ? with the pontifical chuchu whatever pa that they make attach to the university's name if you'd check out their kulay dilaw-na-taeng website? *spit*

grabe, sobra na talaga yun. god is a thomasian?! that's the biggest insult i've ever heard. papayag ka ba naman na ang god pala na sinasamba natin as the all-knowing almighty father, our only source of wisdom, ay isang pipichuging tomasino lang na hindi nakapasa ng acet? my golly, sobra na talaga.

Anong height mo? victim 2

hahhaah!! mukang nagcacalculate pa si Pol dito!! :)) (Taken by YM)

Kukay sy: Uy pol anung height mo?
paul sabino: 5'7 or 5'8
paul sabino: ata or 5'9?
Kukay sy: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa? hindi nga?
paul sabino: yep bakit?
paul sabino: ikaw 5'6 ka db?
Kukay sy: weh hindi nga?
Kukay sy: 5'2 lang ako amf
paul sabino: heels pla yon
Kukay sy: yung totoo?
paul sabino: oo nga 5'7 - 5'8
Kukay sy: 5'9 ka?
Kukay sy: GRABE!!!!
paul sabino: ata
paul sabino: bakit?
Kukay sy: wala.. amf
paul sabino: nakita mo na ako db?
Kukay sy: iniisip ko lang
Kukay sy: kung pano ka nagkasya sa puso ko
paul sabino: hahaha
paul sabino: haha cheesy lines ha
paul sabino: natawa ako dun amp

Love letter para kay ina

-Oh, just a letter love for my mother-
Hold back your tears!! lols

Written in the 27th-28th of Jun 2008 at 11:15pm to 5:30am

Oh by the way, my old lady had just send me a response. (Nagsulat din amf!!)
So in short, nagdramahan kami :D yikee haha ^^


My ever dearest ina,

Hola madre. Nothing, I just feel like writing you a mother love letter. Ewan ko ba what makes me feel like making this letter, maybe I'm just happy today, hindi ko din alam bakit. hahaha ^^ Kanina kasi when i was in my 3:00-6:00pm class, I was thinking of you kasi yung topic namin is about Marriage and Family and when I was having a butt break sa CR naisip ulit kita. Siguro I just want to thank you, really i don't know why. Sabi mo nga hindi natin alam kung hanggang kelan ang buhay ng tao, maybe this would be the first and last na makakpag pasalamat ako sayo ina ng buong puso. I feel like grown up. Mag twetwenty na ko and I can't really imagine it at all. I just want to thank you for letting me learn things on my own. Thank you for shaping me into a person i want to be.

Pinalaki mo ko ng walang halong bahid. I become independent kahit na makalat pa rin yung kwarto ko haha. Pero don't worry, alam ko naman eh, Tinatamad lang ako :D Kaya kong magadjust sa lahat ng bagay dahil pinilit mo kong palakihin sa marangyang buhay ngunit patuloy mo pa rin akong tinuturuang tumingin sa aking pinangalingan. At yun ay isa sa mga pinakamalaking bagay na kaya kong ipagmalaki sa ibang tao.

Having a mother like you while growing up was the greatest gift and biggest advantage anyone could ever had. I want you to continue guiding me. Gusto ko pang matuto sa mga bagay bagay. I want to learn more of what I know. Gusto kong malaman at matutunan ang mga bagay na sa paglaki ko, handa kong harapin ang mundo ng kasamaan at kabutihan tulad mo. Salamat dahil nararamdaman ko na ang yugto ng aking buhay. Through out my life, you've been there lalo na sa mga panahong kailangan kita. Alam na alam mo kung kelan ka papasok at makikielam sa isang problema. Nanay nga kita! Thank you for encouraging me and telling me not to give up when i feel like i can't moved on over things.

Sabi nga ni ahya, para daw akong cactus na handa parin niyang mahalin at alagaan. Thank you for loving me though you're having a cactus like daughter.

It feels so right having you as my mother. Thank you for always taking an interest in what I'am doing. You are my Greatest teacher, Strongest alliance and a Perfect mother. Defining you is so easy mommy, but finding the appropriate adjectives for mother like you is hard. Truly one of a kind. Kaya yung pinag-uusapan natin last time na kapag tumanda ka at nahirapan ako sa pag-aalalaga sayo.. Eh magiging katulad lang ako ng iba na pinabayaan ang magulang at ipinagkaloob sa mga Home for the Aged sa kadahilanang pahirap at sagabal, Dyos ko! Ngayon, siguro, ako na yung kauna-unahang anak na handang baguhin ang pananaw ng iba. Kung wala pang nakakagawa, ako na siguro ang kauna-unahang anak na handang alagaan ka sa hirap at ginhawa. Gawin nating world record hahah :D Joke lang mi, gusto ko lang pong sabihing handa kong ibalik ang mga dapat kong ibalik sa isang katulad mong mapagmahal at maalagang ina. Nais kong ibigay sayo ang bango ng buhay pagdating ng iyong katandaan. ( Remember the BIR stage haha -Babaeng inurungan ng regla- )


Salamat ulit. Two years from now, I would finally extricate college and live a so called free life.

Sana nandiyan pa rin kayo, nanenermon, naninita ng magulo kong silid. Sana patuloy pa rin ang paghahanda niyo ng baon ko kahit may trabaho na ako. ( Ayoko ng hotdog sandwich ang taba taba - mahirap kainin )
Sana patuloy ko pa ring ma-aamoy ang malansang langis na ipinapahid niyo sa tuwing inaataki kayo ng sakit ng katawan o arthritis.
Sana patuloy pa rin kayo sa pagluto ng masasarap ng pagkain.
Sana patuloy pa rin kayong mataba.
Sana patuloy pa rin kayong masigla.
Sana patuloy niyo pa rin kaming dalin sa paradise ( Grocery ) at kunin ang lahat ng gusto namin ( Pero sa panahon niyan, malamang ako na ang taya ).
Sana patuloy ko pa ring makita ang kaadikan niyo sa paglalaro ng computer games.
Sana patuloy mo pa rin akong bilhan ng damit na kung tawagin ay labas ang kululuwa at muli kayo ay magagalit.
Sana patuloy ang paninita niyo sa dami kong binibiling tsinelas.
Sana patuloy pa rin kayong nagdidikit at nagaayus ng pinakamamahal kong mga sapatos.
Sana patuloy niyo pa rin akong bilhan ng mga hairban.
Sana patuloy ko pa ring bubunitin ang mga bilang na puting buhok na tumutubo sa inyong bumbunan.
Sana patuloy niyo pang masaksihan ang mababaw kong luha sa tuwing papagalitan niyo ako.
Sana patuloy ko pa ring maaamoy ang baho ng usuk ng iyong sigarilyo.
Sana patuloy pa rin ang paggaya niyo sa gupit at kulay ng buhok ko.
Sana patuloy pa rin kayong mag-iiwan ng barya sa inyong pantalon at aking kukupitin.
Sana patuloy pa rin kayo sa pagnakaw ng mga damit kong dambuhala sa laki.
Sana patuloy pa rin kayong nakakasunog ng mga lamesa at kung ano ano pang bagay dahil sa inyong sigarilyo.
Sana patuloy pa rin ang inyong kabaitan.

Sana patuloy ko pa ring maramdaman ang pagmamahal niyong walang katumbas nino man.

Sana..

Sana makita ko pa kayong pinapagalitan ang dalawa kong kapatid dahil sa mga kalokohan nila. Sana makita ko pa rin kayong nasusugal.
Sana makita ko pa ang aking sarili na ninigarilyo kasabay niyo.
Sana makita ko kayong patuloy na sumisigaw sa galit.
Sana makita ko pa ang pagtulog niyong nakadekwatro ang paa.
Sana makita ko pa kayong nagmamaneho at ibinabangga ang sasakyan.
Sana makita ko pa ang milyong milyong baso na koleksyon niyo.
Sana makita ko pa ang mga text niyong bulol at di maintidihan. Sana makita ko pa ang mga malalaking damit na hilig niyong suotin.
Sana makita ko pa kayong mukang aswang kung magwala sa galit. Sana marinig ko pa ang tinig niyong walang sinabi ang sabog na speaker.
Sana marinig ko pa ang bunganga niyong parang pwet ng manok kung pumutak.
Sana makita ko pa ang ngiting mas mababaw pa sa 3 feet.
Sana makita ko pa kayo ng aking pangalawang ama na naghahalikan.
Sana makita niyo pa ang sanggol na posibleng tumawag sainyong lola.
Sana makita ko pa kayong uugud-ugud at hirap sa pag lakad at Sana makita ko pa ang kulobot ang panget niyong muka.

Sana..
Pagdating ng panahon..

Sana makita niyo pa ang sarili ko na kamuka niyong may matinding prinsipyo sa buhay.

( PS: Sana makahinga pa ko ng pera sainyo pagdating ng panahon. haha )

Marami pa kong "sana" na nais sabihin ngunit maaaring hindi lahat ito ay maging "sana". Hindi tiyak ang paninindigan ko dahil madami pa akong tulay na pagdadaanan sapagkat panahon lang ang makakapagsabi ng katotohanan at ngayon pa lang ina, nais kong ipadama sainyo ang isa sa mga "sana", na unti-unti ko ng ititatak sa aking puso.

Am I proud to be a Filipino? :D

I don't have any assurance in life. Everything could change but for any instances, I know where to go and I know what to do because of you. Salamat dahil hinayaan niyo akong matuto sa pamamagitan ng aking sarili. I honor you not only during mother's day =D


Who could ever forget about the fake eyebrows you had?
Never leaving the house without lipstick on your lips?
Forgetting to wear slippers when going out?
Those brown eyes that had been striking during the times of your anger?
Always acting a doctor when your sick?
And finally give you a medicine that would make you more into bed?
The one that would had a guts to wake you up so early?
Calling your daughter during classes and would get angry if there is no responses made?
Calling you with no reason just to check you out?
Wearing your daughters cute hair ban?
Stealing your daughter's 50pesos because you cleaned up her room?
Giving chocolates and wrap it with so many newspaper?
Keeping your thousand collections of figurines? thousands of plates?

For God sake.. this is you, mum.. clumsy just like me. :D

You brought me in this world.
Your love? so priceless.
You are the most unravished person i ever known.
For all that you have taught me will always be remember.
You are the best and nothing less.

You are my beacon when im alone... so gentle yet so strong.
(Where did you discovered the energy? How did you do it all? ) It doesn't matter anyway, I love you more that I can express and definitely you have my total respect. You have enriched and nurtured me in so many ways. Nobody is quite like you - you that someday becomes me.

Once again Muchas Gracias madre and I love you so much.

( PS: Mi pautang bibili ako ng bagong sapatos!! )

Love,
Achi

Oh what a great post from my anonymous but special friend of mine.

Destiny at work?!! :))

D E S T I N Y?

sabado ng madaling araw ng ako ay naataasang magalaga ng account ni louie haha! itago nyo na lamang ako sa pangalang "caretaker" ng blog haha! parang maalaala mo kaya ang panget haha! game serious na ako hehe! pasensya na lang kung panget ang aking panimula dahil aminado akong ignorante ako dito dahil ito po ang pinakaunang beses ko gagawa nito haha!

Its been a day already since my pareng louie went out of town with her dear friend and his family. Maybe she needs to loosen up a bit because this past few weeks masyado siyang maraming iniisip at hinanakit sa puso hehe! Kahit ang kanyang pinakamatalik na kaibigan na si ange ay dumanas rin ng ganung sitwasyon nitong nakaraan.

My post is somehow related to the previous post entitled "uhog ng pag-ibig". Nung nabasa ko ito meron akong narealize. Is there really such a word called "Destiny" especially when it comes to love? Sa mga naniniwala sa fairytale siguro meron pero sa mga taong nakaranas na ng sakit at saya sa pagibig tingin nyo meron ba tlga? Maybe experiece is really the best teacher para tayo ay matuto at malaman natin ang sagot.

Based from the previous post nabanggit ni louie na 5yrs ang nasayang sa kaibigan naming c ange. 5yrs tapos ganun ganun lang nawala? Kya nga minsan kong nabanggit kay pareng louie na "nakakabilib yung mga magasawa na tumagal tlga kasi kung ngayon nga yung mga naranasan natin sa naging relationship natin nahihirapan na tayo patagalin paano pa kya yung sa magasawa". Tlga nga bang merong "Destined for each other" o wala? Sa aking personal na pananaw at sa aking napagdaan siguro wala nga tlgang ganun kasi kung iyong iisipin pag ikaw ay nasa isang relationship dapat tlga give and take but sometimes hindi nagiging ganun eh. merong give ng give and meron ring take ng take haha! Ang point ko rito is walang "Kayo" dahil nasa inyo yan kung gugustuhin nyo tlga maging kayo or hindi sa huli. Ewan ko kung tama ako pero kasi kahit ano mang problema ang magdaan basta't hindi bumibitaw ang isa, sa huli siyempre hindi pa rin kayo magkakahiwalay. Im not saying na magpakamartyr at wag bumitaw kahit d na tayo mahal ng taong mahal natin ha kasi kya ka nga nagmamahal para sumaya nde umiyak eh hehe! Siguro masasabi ko na lang ay kung tayo ay magmamahal wag na lang tayo gumawa ng mga bagay na magiging dahilan ng pagbitaw sa atin ng taong mahal natin at sana maging ganun rin yung mamahalin natin sa atin siyempre.

Mensahe ko para sa aking kaibigan na c ange at especially sa pare kong c louie "time really heals wounds" proven na yan hahaha! sinasabi ko to because i know fresh pa yan kasi nde naman overnight ang pagrecover eh hehe! alam nyo ba minsan kong kinontra yan nung akoy minsan nabigo sa pagibig haha! meron kasi nagsabi sa akin ng mga katagang yan at ang sabi ko pa nun "how can time heal this wounds if my world already stopped spinning, tell me how can time pass by if my world is already gone!" drama potek! minsan ko lang naman gawin ang magblog kaya pagbigyan nyo na ako kung madrama haha!

Before matapos ang post na ito gusto ko lang sabihin na kukieee CS na tayo haha! just kidding haha namiss lang kita 1 day tayo walang laro eh hohoho babawi ka sa akin geegee! btw thanks ulit sa trust haha i really appreciate it! tinupad ko promise ko sa iyo ha nagpost ako. Ingatz ka sa biyahe paguwi and enjoy your stay sa subic. GTG its 7am already and i need some sleep haha!

Uhog ng pag-ibig

Lunes ng walang tigil sa pagtulo ng aking malapot-lapot na uhog..

Hindi pa nga humihilab ang tiyan ko pana'y pa ang bahing ko.

Pesteng pusa yan, sabi ko naman kay Ange ipakatay na namin ang mga pusa nilang mahal ang lahi. Siamese cat kung tawagin.


Hindi ko nga alam ang pakiramdam ng hinihika pero pakiramdam ko unti-unting pinapatikim sakin ang mga tanda ng kamatayan.

Humingi na ako kaagad ng pangontra.


Sa bahay kasi ng aking matalik na kaibigan ako mamalagi ng gabi, sapagka 't siya'y kasalukuyang nakararanas ng 3rd degree heart burn.


Diyos ko! Patawarin niyo po ang mga nagkasala sa pagiging mapagbigay at nagmahal ng dalawa.


Buti na lang mas pinili kong bumuo ng pusong winasak at wawasakin ko rin pagkatapos.. Charing! Mga babala ng paghihiganti lang yan. Wag kang matakot mahal ko di kita kayang saktan. harharhar!


Pasalamat nga ang minalas na lalaking ka-ibigan ni Vega at di pa niya ito itinatapon sa tubig alat dahil kung sa akin iyon nangyari baka di na kaya ipinta ni Juan Luna ang kanyang sarili at baka di na kayang retokihin ni Belo ang mga nakapayong at inuulan ng kapangitan.


Limang taon ang sinayang. Panahon ay di na kayang paghinayangan pa.

Sayang. Sayang talaga ang tanging nasabi ko kasunod ng mga malugod kong payo kay Miko.

Bubug man daw ang kanyang luhuran nais niyang mabalik ang loob ng sinisinta.

Laugh out loud ika nga sa chat.

Tila walang dating ito sa taong kanyang niloko ng ilang taon.


Mula't na sa katotohanan si Bestfriend at mula't narin sa katotohanan ng pag-ibig ni _____.

Sa tagal ng pagtatamo kung ano ang kantang Nobody Knows na inalay sa kanya.



Saan nga ba hahantong ito?

Nakikiliti ka na ba ulit?

Tapos na ba ang mga bakas ni Miko?

O mananatili tayong nagdidiwang sa alak tuwing gabi?




Ano ba yan! Bakit napunta ako sa kwento ng pag-ibig mo ( Ange ). Isusulat ko dapat ang pagkasabik ko sa palabas na "It started with a Kiss" ni Joe, Ariel Lin at Cyndi Chaw na iyong ipinapanood saakin. Isusulat ko sana ang matinding pagkabigo ko na mapanood ito dahil Rewrittable Compact Dics lamang ang nakalagay sa mahiwagang Computer nila RJ.

Samakatuwid nais ko lang sanang sabihin na ang CORNY CORNY ng palabas na ito at kung di lang dahil sa pamagat na kung di pa nakakalipas ang tatlong buwan ay baka-malamang-hindi ko alam kapaki-pakinabang pa ang mga maaari kong maisulat. BWAHAHAHA!!

Sige paalam na! Tatahiin ko pa ang sugat ko baka di pa kaya ng taglay kong talino na ilabas at ikwento ang masarap na umpisa ng pag-ibig - pag-ibig na nagmula sa halik! naks haha =))

haha=)), Anuh ba yan mula sa inuhog ako hanggang sa pag-ibig. Ayos to!

"Ang Pag-ibig na dakila'y aayaw nang matagalan, Parang lintik kung gumuhit sa pisngi ng kadiliman. Ang halik na ubos-tindi, minsan lamang nahalikan, At ang ilog kung bumaha, tandaan mo't minsan lamang- Ang Pag-ibig kapag duwag"

shall i say a fake one?

"With the pain burning my heart, I crawled over the air. Did I grip it tightly like the heavy burden of emotional responsibility or was I acting out of an instinctive self-defense,or was I lusting after glory and true love? or shall i say a fake one?"

I miss every single of me

Honestly, I miss every single of me.

I miss the old me. Yung parating nakatawa, walang ginawa kung hindi tumawa lang
And that what keeps me alive each day.

I miss the old me. Yung tipong I find my real moments during lunch or dinner.
But that seems to be vice versa now. Kahit na I used to cook for my family.

I miss the old me. Yung matutulog na nakangiti tapos di ka makatulog kagad because you recall things over. Nevertheless, the routine didn't change yun nga lang di ka makatulog dahil sa problema and that definitely waste a gallons of tears. Damn!

I miss the old me. Yung may gana pa ko sa lahat ng bagay.
I find it challenging every time pero ngayon not a single try.

I miss the old me. Yung top priority mo aside from your family and special someone is your FRIENDS. Can't deny that i miss them.. the company- kahit na on process pa yung scars ko dito ( kahit na maraming kahit na pa kong sabihin), I do miss the catching breathe moment with them. ( Change of mind, Sorry! )

I really miss myself. :(

SAVE ME!!! Someone save me..!!

AHHAHHAHAHA

I've moved on!!

Bad day!! Bad heart bad mind bad soul..

Ang sakit ng katawan ko ng puso ko ng ulo ko ng paa ko ng lahat!!..

Anuh ba yan!! I waaaaaannnnnnaaaaaaaa stay in silence
Can i just find my way back without someone getting attached with?
I waaaaaaaaannnnnnnnaaaaaaa be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
ayaw ko ng problemaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! DAMN!! God save me!!

Am I just too paranoid? Or was it really me?!! Ayoko na eh.. Kasi kung meron pa sabihin mo para kang bata eh!! haha

You use words from the song and what?! Pretty bad!

Let me laugh to say I've moved on!

What a dream!! haha.. My God.. Wish it was true haha thou it's funny Argh!.. Someone interpret my dream pleaseeeeee.. was it a sign or just me reminiscing? lolx!!

Nakakabaliw naman kasi.. There are times that i feel like moved on already but there will come another times that i do reminisce the sweet past naks. But there are this sometimes when i feel like becoming a monsters and sometimes stay in silence. This feeling become simultaneously part of my daily thinking habit haha may ganun pa eh nuh?!! pa iba-iba every now and then. Maybe I'm still in the state of going home.. still finding my way back. Wala naman na eh..promise!! :)) The only thing that keeps the pain holding is simply what he did including the climax lols. Yun na lang.. wala na yung unconditional love!! naks!! haha

Tama ngah yung sinabe ni ange.. Songs really affects us. There's a big impact through how it was delivered. Kaya ngah favorite ko yung Gloomy Sunday eh hahah ü Coz' it affects me so well. hahah tama tong kabaliwan na toh!! haha

There's nothing in this world

There's not another girl that could satisfy my needs

There's nothing in this world

There's not another boy that could make me feel so sweet

Coz me love life's so right

When she hold me so tight,

how she kiss me goodnight Coz he fills up my life

Like the sun, he shines brightBoy, come with me now

This song put me on a good mood :D

can't help to shake~

Break Up Lines

HAHAü While I'm browsing the Baldur forum under the category of -> "Can you mend a broken Heart?" -I therefore agreed that Break up is inevitable. Unavoidable indeed!!

and here are some break up lines that really turn me catching my breathe. haha
( Some Lines are also taken from the web )

1. "What makes her so much better?" "It's not that she's better... It's just that you've been lacking..." - Thea
2. "nakabuntis ako eh.." - Mojo
3. "TANGINA MO! WALA KANG KWENTA!"
4. honey, i'm gay. - Towi
5. Things aren't working well for the both of us... (hindi pa sabihing "walang kwentang relasyon 'to sus") -Arcite Valeheart
6. I can't manage/balance both my and you... maybe it's time we call this relationship off. (magaling gumamit ng alibi) -Arcite Valeheart
7. Maybe we should just cool off as of now... (tapos wala ng balikan) -Arcite Valeheart
8. Darling, you haven't got any money left. Goodbye!! -Arcite Valeheart
9. "Ayaw ko na." - Alphanumeric
10. "I love you. And you know what? My mom recently told me that I am a big fat liar." - Arcite Valeheart
11. You deserve someone else better - Mr. Topher
12. "Masyado akong pogi para sa 'yo." - Arcite Valeheart
13. "Ayoko ng suput" - Arcite Valeheart
14. sorry... hindi ako naging tapat about sa feelings ko.. - Dindin
15. today, i feel the same way when i left my ex-boyfriend - Towi
16. "We've known each other for so long... I think it's time to move on." - Thea
17. YOU'RE FIRED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - Utamahamba
18. "i want to be alone."
    pero wag ka, after a week may bago nang boyfriend. YESSSS!!! -Becca
19. "napapabayaan ko na pagaaral ko.. aayusin ko muna to"
20. love cnnot liv wer der is no trust....goodbye...nkakasakal k n... - Andrei
21. im no longer happy (my nkpgpapasaya n kcng iba gg)...if u rily do luv me,den set me free... - im yours
22. I need a lover who understands that 20 hours a day on the Internet is normal. Goodbye!!
23. I'd like a true beauty so I don't have to spend so much time photoshopping your ugly face out of our photos.
24. Let's face it. You' re a Smart user, and I'am a Sun Cellular user. It's not going to work out! - Kukie
    
25. So long and thanks for all the fish.
26. Now that Half Life 2 is out, I need to refocus my priorities.
27. We need to talk - thats a dead ringer things are going bad and you are on your way out. - Getmethebigknife
28. you'll get-tum next time tiger! (then a slap on the butt) - Ben
29. i dont know how to say this...... im not all woman. i have a penis:( sorry but i have needs) - roxytules2005
30. I want to spend more time with my dog..he just needs my support right now... Im sorry -Ambriece
31. I just dont think its working and believe me it is not you its me. you are just wonderful. Lets be friends.

YOU TWO HOLD HANDS AND GO JUMP TO THE LAKE!! Fuck You ,,i,, - Kukie

1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirty

-single ( currently, trying to be flirty ü haha)

2) Are you happy with that?

-sometimes yesh somestimes not..argh

3) Would you kiss your ex?

-Definitely!! I'll grab him :))

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?

-Yeah just 2 months ago..

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is oK?

-You should do ask me last 2months ago so i can answer you with my angel tongue. gg haha

7) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?

-Yeah.. and for once in my life I've wish it will happen but fuckly, .... blah blah.. :))

8) Do you want children?

-How many? haha

9) How Many?

-gaya gaya amfuta haha

10.) Would you consider adoption?

- Oh Yeah!! Love it..!

11) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?

- No- if they woundn't care to irritate me. / Yesh- if i can feel that i'am irritated.. hit me? haha

12) Do you want someone you can’t have?

-LECHE!!

13) Have you fallen in love?

-Many times but just once!! anuh?! haha

14) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?

- naman!! But one thing we can truly not to forget anniversaries is to forget it once!! =))

15) Do you believe that you can change for someone?

-I think so.

16.) Is it a good day?

-Uhm.. yesh but yesh but not.. I don't know.

17) Have you ever broken a heart before?

-yeah :(

18) Does your ex still have feelings for you?

- Which one?

19) Do you still have feelings for them?

-For only one..

20) Do you believe in long distance relationships?

- I do.

Oh yeah, I'm missin' my one only tart badly..

He's currently spending his last days of vacation in Korea. And Indeed!, all his nonesense and ignorant moves will soon rest in peace.

Nothing more.
I can't help to think of you tart
Farrr awayy from me
haha :D

Ingatxü

BUTS OF BUTS

BUTS OF BUTS

I don't wanna cry anymore
but I just can't..

It's not totality of the pain ..
I don't care even
but I'm still incarcerate for the love that I once long.

I know in myself,
I've tried so hard
to let this damn air pass
but I just can't deny the feeling-
thousand injuries rolling over me.
Yesh!!-Inside my heart!!

And yet, what?
Between my ears?
dig me?
Your just there hanging in my nose.
Trying to cross my eyes
and reach upon you
but It's just that your really flying away...
can't reach you anymore.


-total wreck pare!!!-

-There's a lot of BUT!!! My God, now that I tend to set myself free.. Your just there putting me down and down. And You know what? when the time comes that I could reach the hell and start my life engine.. I swear, You we will be damn cool without me - without me thinking of you, bullshitting you either, until I end up not loving you anymore.

I swear!!

I stay in love I stay in love
Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby I
Try and try so hard
To keep our love alive
If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well'
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all

What I wanna do is
Ride shot-gun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
proud in the S.U.
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone


- I hate that I love this fucking song!!!

Yesterday

On the young breasts

The thirst and pain of joy

Are still virgin

But the wind has carried

The warmth and fragrance of flesh

The sighs of light rain—

The hill road is deserted

My sorrow is still virgin

No hand can cover it

Memory is silent, in the corners of the house

I know

And you know too

The wind has carried yesterday away

Today, i can write the best lines..

FINALLY!! FINALLY!! hahaü Today, i can write the best lines!! haha.. It's been a while that i become too exhausted of whats happening in my life, those sarcastic and words of anger in my previous post would be at its normal way starting now. hihi.. I cannot put conclusion yet because now, i want to be exactly sure, thou im still in the state of moving on to another cycle of my own world.

The thunderous silence will slowly leads me to become more aware of my friends, family and what so ever relationship would i probably have in the future.

Honestly, I wanna disregard those previous squatter post of mine but as i think of things around, I'd realized that someday when i read it again, I know that i can prove and say that I've learned alot. Not just an intellectual knowledge which i refer to intellective senses but it is a sense of experience. (Sensesitive) I wanna capture life from bottom to top. The truth, the best, the worse, the evil, the life itself. A non ending process that will soon give you the starting point despite of the rigorous situation that comes into your fuckin life. Hence, It encourage us to have a qualitative changes in our attitude through trusting people. The "worth" that one must transform before trancending to another respective relationships.

Philosophically, we need to undergo "doubt". (stated by Rene de Decartes) "Paghinalaan mo lahat" which implies that not all are worthy and not all are futile. Take Paghinalaan mo lahat not in a literal way but rather in a deep sense of understanding. Like what ive said, not all people that show you no difference would lead you to a better relation- relation to the extent of ingraining them into your blood. No! Don't ever ever.. (Who taught me of this? of course, no other than my best friend Ange nyahah!) I'am talking a bit of a fuzzy logic right? nangyayari na hindi mo kayang ma iexplain. Something would force your mind to think that in the end, you can stand still and learn to bestow your loyalty to someone who truly deserve it.ü

we deserve to be happy.

FOOM! :)

Sorry ah, di ko masabi directly kung ano gusto ko sabhn!! Since im currently indulge with philosophy now, (kht na nde ako love ng philosophy haha..) dun kuh nlng binase ung nararamdaman ko.

Maybe someday, I can write the happiest lines.. haha!! :))

P.S. ang makakaintindi lng nyan ung mgah may utak!! ung marunung mag isip ok? hahah

Does GOSSIPS make sense?!!
YESHH!!, IT DOES!!
dibah friend?
just beware of ears and eyes..=))

haha~
oops!! wag muh na icopy paste..

"panuh ko nalaman?"
di un ang tanung na dpt mong problemahin
"Bakit ka ganyan?"
yan ang dpt mong problemahin.

well..farewell guys.
^^

ANG GUSTO KO LNG NMN TLGAH SABHN EH MAWALA LNG KITAH!!

NA SANA WALA LNG!!

NA NDE SANA WALA LNG!!

AT HIGIT SA LAHT SANA MINAWALANG MO DIN AKO!!

UN LNG NMN EH!

walang nmn kc tlgah toh!! ^^ ANUH BAH!!!

GUMALING MAN TONG SUGAT PUT@ DI KAKAYANIN NG SEBO DE MACHO TOH!! TANGINA SA DAME DAME SAU PA KO NAKARINING NG GANYAN?!!! NAKARAMDAM NG GANYAN?!! PUCHA AYOKONG MAGLIT EH PERO WALA!! DI KO NAMAN KAYANG SABHN SAU TANGINA!! INUBUSH MO NA LAHT NG LAKAS NG LOOB KO EH!!

PERO KAHIT NA GANUN I WON'T TAKE ANY CHANCE NA ISIPIN NA WALANG KWENTA UN! ALAM MO NA UN!! DAHIL ALAM KO AT ALAM MO NA WITH THAT SHORT SPAN OF TIME NAPAKITAH MO UNG NARARAMDAMAN AT SALAMAT AH!!

SALAMAT SA NAPAKASAYANG PAKIRAMDAM AT SA NAPAKA SAKIT NA PUTANGINA AYAW KO NG MARAMDAMAN ULIT.

NGYN LNG GUMULO UNG ISIP KO NG GANITO PUCHA!! KC KAHT DI MO PA ALAM GINAGAWA MO DPT NAGISIP KA NG KAHT KONTI LNG!!! THERES A LOT OF REASON TO HOLD ON NA SANA NGYN DI MO NASABI UNG MGAH DPT DI SABHN NA BAGAY NA PUTA TUMGOS SA LIKOD KO EH!! SA LIKOD TAKE NOTE!!

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NABABALIW NA KO BLOGGEEE SORRY NA!!

LESSON LEARNED:

DI LAHAT NG TAO NA FEELING MO OK, MAPAGKAKATIWALAAN OR SIMPLY KA UGALI MO O KUNG ANO ANO PA AY PWEDE NA PUMASOK SA BUHAY MO! DI LAHAT NG TAO NA SA TINGIN MO THUMBS UP AY PWEDE MO NA PAPASUKIN SA BUHAY MO! YAN PUTA!! YANG ANG NATUTUNAN KO NGYN!!

PAGSINABING AYAW NA AYAW NA!! NGYN NASAKTAN PA KO, EH SAN KNA PUPULUTIN?

NDE LHT NG NAG MAHAL SAU AY KAYA KA PARING ITREASURE PAG DATING SA HULI.

DAPAT IBURA MO NA CYAH SA UTAK MO PARA TULUYANG MASIRA ANG BUHAY MO! PUTA

-WALA AKONG MASABENG MATINO
NABWIBWISIT LNG TLGAH KO!!

AI PUCHA!! NAKAKA BWISIT TLGAH!! UNG MGAH IMPORTANTENG TAO SA BUHAY MO DI KA KAYANG PAHALAGAAN!! PERO NUNG NAKITAH KO UN, ALAM KO NA UNG GUSTO MONG IPARATING!! ANG DAMI NA NATING PINAG SAMAHAN, GINAGAGO KNA, ININTINDI MUH NAH LAHAT NA PUTA!! NGYN WALA KNA!! SANA TLGAH DI NLNG NANGYRE TOH EH NAKAKA ANO AMF!! SANA WALA NA KONG PAKIELAM SAU SANA TLGAH!! AT PAG DUMATING UNG ARAW NA YUN SANA MARAMDAMAN MO UNG SAKIT TANGINA, HINDI MAN NGYN PERO PAG "READY KNA" DAMN U'LL REALIZE MY WORTH!!! NDE PORKET NAKITAH MO UNG IMPERFECTION NG ISANG TAO IIWAN MO NA SA ERE AT PWEDE NG BASTUSIN!! SAYANG TLGAH, WAG NLNG UNG DI SINASADYA NA NAGYRE EH, UNG PINAGSAMAHAN NLNG. DAHIL PUTA SA ARAW ARAW NA BINIGAY NG DIYOS, DI LANG UNG HINANAKIT SA LOOB KO UNG DINADALA KO!! PATI UNG MAGANDANG IPINAKITAH MO!! NAKAKAINISH ISIPIN, NAKAKAIYAK ISIPIN NA SA DAMI DAMI NANGYRE SAINYU. IKAW PA UNG GINAWANG ULAM!! DAMN!! ANG DAMI KONG KAILANGANG TANGAPIN NGYN PUTANGINA!! NASIRA LAHAT AH!! NAKAK BWISIT PERO WALA AKONG MAGAWA KUNDI IKIMKIM LAHAT NG WINASAK MO SA BUHAY KO!! HINDI AKO GALIT AH NAKAKABWISIT LNG NA SANA NGYN IKAW NMN ANG MAGPAKA HERO!! MUKA NA KONG TANGA EH TANGINA!! NAKAKAWALANG GANA TOTOO LNG!! ETO KAMING DALWA NA ALAM MONG KAHIT ANONG MANGYRE MAY INAASAHAN KA PERO PUTA UNG MGAH TAO PANG ALAM MONG DI KAYA PANINDINGAN UNG MGA SINASABE, DUN KA PA NGYN UMAASA! PUTA KUNG SINU KA MAN SANA WAG KA SANA TAMAAN!!

masakit magmahal pag binigay mo lahat...
kahit alam mo walang darating na kapalit...
pero mas masakit magmahal pag pinaasa ka nya na mahal ka nya
tapos sasabihin syo na... "SORRY, YOKO NA..."


- eto pa puta tlgah!!!

di madaling maghintay...
di rin biro ang magmahal...
minsan kala mo "SIYA NA"...
minsan kala mo ok na...
pero mamamalayan mo na lng...
dumaan lng pala sya sa buhay mo para saktan ka!


- nakakpikon tong quotes na toh! sobrah grrrr hahaha!! -

The most important thing when entering in a relationship is knowing ur worth. don't let anyone make u feel inferior or make u feel that ur not important. always remember that u are someone who is worth fighting 4 and if that person is not willing to do that for u then it's time to move on cos he doesn't deserve u. dont' ever think that it is ok to be treated badly even if the excuse is fear of commitment because that is just a load of bullshit. if you love someone you would never ever desire to hurt that person on purpose and you would never ever humiliate that person in front of ur friends. that is just too juvenile. KNOW YOUR WORTH. NEVER FORGET.



-Ange


( punyeta ka angelica hahaha! pero totoo yan argh!! )

I'm back from our Pampangga outing.. not happy at all instead I'm super mad. It's started with a gap, maybe because I know something about him ( you know the tango) and him? I don't know what's bothering him at all. We're not sitting together at the car but somehow we try to act 20% normal. Tryin' to show everybody that were somehow ok? We arrive acting happy and so to say, i can't hook up to these feeling anymore. But things goes on and we had our cooking sessions, of course it's include the chikas and everything. By the time we finished eating, we took out the beers and start to mess around the cottage. I can exactly feel the space between us but for as long as i can't hide it, I can't help to look at him. The eyes that had once been looking at me before. Trying to hide these pain inside me that totally took my heart away. But then, crazily, our topic turns out sharing something about love. Fortunately, when they tryin to dig me up to share, my friend suddenly explained that there our things that don't need to share out that they are the only peel to that problem. Perhaps it would be to awkward for us knowing we're both there. But still, my expectations never end, hoping that he could do some moves that could probably make us fine. Damn to say!, his sleeping and me? couldn't do anything but since I was drank, I went to the room and talk to him. Am I the man?!! I don't know what took me so brave to that fuckin thing. Thank God he acted nice. His head where lying in my lap while tryin' to put back my tears off. We started to talk and not upset, it's really over. Pleasing him wouldn't make it back. Hence, I tried to show how much he mean to me doesn't really matter to him anymore. His not really ready and his also afraid that he might rook me.



bukas nlng ulit..! kakainish amf

ok!!! today is not the day!! good luck to me hope i can make it. if not walk out? suicide? wag!! kaen nlng!! haha :)) wish me luck

hay potangina! inaantuk na ko ayaw pa ma2log ni jen! bow!

I'm dying inside!! haha. After 5days of being drank, somehow i got relief. Nights are so lonely thou we had our laughing and tripping moments with my beloved friends. We had our serious talk and share everything we had. I feel so stupid then.. hahah! But you know what?, I can't burst it out instead I eat my pride and act 80% normal. hahaha=)) coz we're having our outing next week and his with us. I wanna keep that upcoming moment special. I want to make the most of everything we had and if i had the guts, i would tell him everything but soon, that will end. I'm leaving him :)

Fuck!! Just a little bliss, just a little. Why can't he show it? i just a need little strength but the problem is after all of our dramas, he never let me stay.

He leave me because he don't want to hurt me and as far as i can understand, everything will just flow in the air.

Sayang!! I wish i could take sojourn to heaven and let God tell me how could i possibly forget these bullshit things!!

Here i go again blowing you up.. :))

I found out something. All this time that im willing to sacrifice, I found out that it takes three to tango. There's someone aside from me and i don't have this guts of telling him. I'm still high. I don't want to be too impulsive, now that I feel the anger. Thus, im afraid that he'll get the chance to lie. ^^

Bullshit!! he fooled me. that's it

Bullshit Bullshit Bullshit!
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sad to be back!! Batanggas, forgot the exact place. Bamboo blah blah...
hehe!=)) i spend the Eastern not with my family but with my friend and her family.
We don't use to go out or even eating outside for bonding churva, most of the time mama use to cook delicious food and together we spend the whole meal talking and sharing. I'm use to it, Im tired of pleasing them to hang out somewhere so now? the effect- Not a rebellious daughter (never) but rather, I' am starting to mess around. haha=)) But but but its not the main reason why i do start to ruin my life now. ~ I'm so depressed. I would die if i keep myself here inside the house. Not just the aura of the house everything inside here. I hate being alone!! I'm out of the topic. haha

Oh well, its quite hot.. I plan to have a brand new skin tone, haplessly, My skin didn't change. Still Anemic..=)) Were quite exhausted of catching jelly fish with Achi Joanne and Jen. We go kayak and so embarrass to say we bump out the boat haha=)) Gosh.. the poise! haha!! But this joyful vacation was just a pretension of my sad days of hoping. We had our texting mania. Sad to say, I no longer want to please him for staying still with me. I' am a bona fide woman. I play a real game not just a game. I'm so tired of fixing our relationship and I don't want to come somewhere in a point that I'm in the state of suicide. You know, when you can't handle it anymore, you probably leave everything with God and I don't want to see myself so tired of praying because from the start you know that you don't deserve it. I'm not the one. I know and it so sad to accept it. but little by little, i would slowly keep all this scars inside me. And someday we' ll meet half way but not in real, just in the air.

It so hard to move on when you love someone so much that your willing to give the little piece you still have. Like what id told him, I don't have the guts to walk away and forget what we have but I can't because i know he won't come after me. I'm so afraid to make a decision again 'coz my tears might fall forever. I'm so weak baby!! damn!!


After all, just want to thank him for the happy moments we had. If theres a word that would basically describe happiness in higher level, I will probably use it. I hate you because you make me go crazy everyday!! I can't help to review our memories.. it keeps on holding on as well as the pain. And now finally, i need to move on and mess around. I deserve to be happy ( sabe ni tart yan skn) and reload some bullets for myself. peaceout~

I can't stop myself hoping for Yesterday to come back when it was the only future I ever wanted and needed from the start.

Oh! again, I will make some drama here. hehe I think this is the saddest part of my life. I don't know if I'm too stupid, idiot or what! but what important is the feeling deep within you. Since from the start I knew that were not goin' to reach the highest peak but then, I just hope and wish.. I always ask this gift to last until all our imagination of 40 years after but i don't think this will happen when in this present moment he wouldn't be here for me.

~When the fairy tale I once knew is gone